Zul-Leha

2010-01-30T10:25:00.002+08:00

Good morning!

Woooo I totally haven't been doing anything to this blog at all.
Coz I've been totally busy, totally tired and LAZY!
I even thought of closing down this blog, but then all I can think is all the posts that have been there for years.
So i just leave it like that. The blog is open but not updated at all.
Last time I updated was September 2009.
It has been forever.

Alright alright, I will make it point to update my blog okay.
But don't blame me if I go hiatus again. Not my fault.
There are just too many distractions.

2009-09-24T03:33:00.002+08:00

Mothers have historically fulfilled the primary role in raising children. Mothers are more likely than fathers to encourage assimilative and communion-enhancing patterns in their children. Mothers are more likely than fathers to acknowledge their children's contributions in conversation. The way mothers speak to their children is better suited to support very young children in their efforts to understand speech than fathers.

Thats the definition of a mother. The social role of a mother. (taken from wikipedia.org)

So does my mother fits that? I don't know...
The only time she really listens to me is when she found out about my disability.
Yes... that time.

Why isn't she someone I can share secrets with?
Why can't I talk about boys with her?
Why is she like that in the first place?

Her respond is always the same...
No piece of encouragement...

Everytime I have a problem, why can't I tell her?
Coz I know it will be useless. She doesn't listen.

2009-09-24T03:20:00.002+08:00

Have I told you how pathetic my Hari Raya is?
Damn pathetic.
I haven’t worn the baju kurung at all.
Not once. So the first time I’m going to wear it is when I go out with my friends for jalan raya that if it is confirmed. Haish…

I hate everyone.
I hate everything.
I hate this month.

The reason that I told my friends why I don’t go out for Raya is freaking lame.
“Oh my grandfather passed away this year, so everyone’s not celebrating.”

What a big lie sia!!

The real reason?
Ibu severe ties with her siblings, personal problems.
That even us the kids are involved.
What did we do wrong? Err… nothing!!!!

I don’t want this life anymore.
I don’t look forward to going home after work.
I don’t look forward to any occasions because I know nothing is going to happen at all.
I just don’t look forward to anything at all.

“WELCOME TO MY FCUKED UP LIFE…”

You see me smiling on the outside but actually I'm falling apart...

... slowly. very slowly...

2009-09-24T03:00:00.002+08:00

Miss me? Haha.
Right now, I have no mood to joke around. Why?
Because my family is officially a fucked up one. Can’t believe I’m saying this but I can’t keep it anymore. I screamed at Ibu just now. I just let it out. All the months that I think I can be there and support Ibu all the way is too much for me to handle.

Come on lah.

Dear Ibu,

I’m so sorry for yelling at you and ayah during dinner. But it’s too much. You always talk about Abang; it has always been his name coming out of your mouth ever since he moved out. But why do I get the feeling that you really miss him? I mean what parents doesn’t love their child right? But why do always say that you hate him? It’s not that I’m supporting him. I just had enough. Have you ever thought about my feelings? Every single time I hear his name from your mouth… what about mine? What about Ancik’s? Have you ever talked to Ancik about me? Have you ever talked about Ancik to me? It has always been Abang. And I know you don’t want to admit that you are always thinking about Abang every single minute/second.

Do you know that Ancik is trying his very best to get this fucking family back to normal? I just can’t wait until Abang is just gone. Because right now the thing that is making this family crash is Abang. Him and all his problems.

Ibu, I’m still young. Let me enjoy my share of joy. I don’t want to think too much. Every time I go home, only to hear you talk about him. Ibu and Ayah the same! You guys say all the bad things about him from years ago… you guys keep bringing up the past.

Ibu, you always remind me that I’m lucky to be this family but… most of the time… I kind of regret being here. Yes, we do have money… sufficient to keep our stomach full. Yes, we have food. Yes, we have the necessities. Yes yes yes. Always say that no wonder my friends like to come to my house.

But the thing is they do not know how life can be in this family.

No, to the unity in this family. What happened to the times we used to camp beside the beach as one family? This is just crap.

Ergh! How I wish I can tell this to someone who understands this…

2009-08-29T03:38:00.005+08:00

a very good morning..!
time check : 3.40am
yeah. pagi abes nye.

so how's life?
i am very bored!!
right now is the school holidays, but with this fasting month going on... can't do much.
really...
i've been spending time with NS and ibu at home.

oh yar. have i told that ibu hired me for this fasting month.
yeah. she's paying me. not cash but an i-touch.
coolios. so everytime when i'm not working, i stay at home-baking/cooking.
IBU IS PASSING DOWN ALL HER KNOWLEDGE TO ME. (just had the conversation with her)
tiring lah.
the conversation always end the same way as it has always been. LATER.

her time to shine, she has been busy baking and baking.
now my house is like a factory.
the smell of all these cakes and pastries fuyoh!
enough to make you full. seriously.
you can smell it when you are standing at the staricase.

my fellow girlfriends out there, (my blog is not dead-so READ THIS)

I WANNA GOO OUT!!!!! with all of you. every single one of you!!

HOLIDAY LAH SEH...!

i miss you all. <3

work has been going fine.

just that that particular person is getting on everyone's nerves slowly.

stubborn nak mampos agaknye.

kecik kecik susah kan orang, dah besar degil nak mampos.

TSK!

lucky got June and Amira.

oh! now can cuci mate. a lot lah seh!!

xPxP

2009-08-27T02:24:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone.

I’ll try my best to start updating this blog k.
I’m seriously getting bored with blogging.
Is there anything new out there?
Sigh.

Anyway, how’s life everyone?
I’ve been missing for nearly a month, k wait, I think longer than that right?
So much have been happening, a lot I guess.

My FT Island’s Cross & Change is here with free poster lah!
School’s out! UTs are going on (not anymore!)…
Fasting month is finally here. Not that I’m excited about it or anything, just that I want to get over and done with it fast.

I’m back with NS right now.
I know… muka tembok kan.
Going back to there after leaving without a word.
Everything is so different now.
New staffs. New items. New supervisors.
I feel so alien in that place.
But I got use to it already.
Second month there, no wait… it’s my third month already.
And to count back, if I didn’t leave, it is already a year plus I’ve been working under retail.

Have I told you that my brother is no longer leaving with me?
Ah yes. My eldest brother...
I have no idea where he is, where he lives, whom he is with.
He came back for awhile and POOFF!
He just disappears just like that.
And this time Ibu felt nothing…
I think so.
Maybe this is the last time though.
Abang wants to get married to someone that Ibu and Ayah will never restu. Is that the word? Erps.
I’m kinda disappointed with Abang; he is always up to something.
When he is good to you, asking how school is, how’s life… the next thing you know, he’ll be asking for money.
I mean… I work for my own money, why can’t his girlfriend or whoever does that too?
Asking for money from me through you.
You lie to me just to feed your girl… great!

Oh!
And Abang (I really wish and pray hard that you are reading this), thanks for ignoring your own father and forgetting Ibu’s birthday.
That sentence you told Ancik is totally wrong man! “Buat ape balik jumpe ibu?”
Whatever it is, I don’t like you any more…

Ibu’s birthday was pretty much a simple one.
The surprise was a failure.
Haha!
Since Ancik booked out on Saturday morning and going back in on Sunday afternoon, we had to have an advance celebration for Ibu.
Strawberry Cheesecake just for her.
We bought a portable radio for her room, and a tamusk (I have no idea what it is in English).
K I’m typing a freaking composition here. Stop me!!

FYI: Ayah got admitted to the TTSH for a day and half 3 weeks ago.
His sickness is back. Officially - now his pain is very bad.
The word he is looking forward to is ‘____’.
Ancik told me that Ayah advice him to look after Ibu after he leaves (because he is the only son he has left) – don’t let her eat dinner alone at home, just don't leave alone.
“Tkmo kasik ibu buka puase sorang sorang kat umah, balik makan ngan ibu. Ayah keje, korang stay kat rumah lah teman Ibu.”

2009-07-18T00:51:00.003+08:00

anyways... how is everyone lately? fine? healthy?
have i told you that I've put on braces?
hehe. yeapyeap.

its been 3 weeks already. so fast right...
see that smile above, its beyond it. hidden. haha.
right now, with these on, i have difficulties in closing my mouth properly.
even when i smile, people will immediately look at my teeth.
like as if something got stuck to it.

and seriously, wearing braces is no easy job. the brushing, the chewing of food and the pain.
sometimes when i got very tired of chewing (it is freaking tiring alright-no matter how many times you chew, it will never is broken into smaller pieces), i just stop eating.
amazing right?

the dentist told me that her patients always loose weight during the duration of 2-3 weeks of braces.
but to me, seriously, i don't know what to do sia.
i heck care one uh, eat just eat up. if tercelit pon, it is makanan jugak kan.
fill up my stomach first. LOL.
gemok kan perangai. haha.
so yeah, i really hope, that this is a way for me to lose weight.

2009-07-18T00:40:00.002+08:00

this is depressing.
recently ibu told me about my little cousin who just got her first "sign".
if you understand what i meant, then that's a good thing.

well, not that i care so much about it.
i have no idea why ibu told me that when it is going to hurt me alot.
when she said that news to me, i felt like crying.
but i controlled.
it was painful. even though, it is not affecting me right now.
it's just is...

haven't been going to any checkups lately. why?
because i know what the results will be and it will be a waste of money if i kept going.
useless you see...

and ibu... i have no idea why she can't just give up already.
i mean sometimes when the two of us are left alone, we talked about it.
i asked her what will happen in the future if this continues...
she keeps giving me the positive answer. keeps giving hope.

sometimes it is really not fair. like why me?
blah blah blah...

ergh!
i have a lot of things going on in my head anyways.
and this whole thing should be kept at the back of my head.

2009-07-18T00:31:00.002+08:00

hello.
i seriously do not know what to do with this blog.
i wanted to delete it but sayang sia.
all my memories, everything lah is inside here.
it's like every time i want to blog, i tend to change my mind and do something else.
like what the hell right?

ok ok, i think i will take my time to update this blog or maybe change the skin also.
well, i learnt alot of designing webpages during DMA ok.
alright people/human beings out there...
just wait till i have something to really update about.

message for today...

"When driving alone, do not dig your nose or do something stupid.

There are people watching you that you will never know who..."

:D:D

2009-06-17T09:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday, Ancik masok NS. finally.
after defering it for the pass few years.
ibu, ayah and abang went to send him.
but i didn't, school lah.
even though i really wanted to follow because i didn't send abang years back.
and i want to see that place, ride the ferry.

dearest ancik,

take care over there.

lose those fats.

i'll see you in 2 weeks or so...

:D:D

hwaiting!!

your sister.

2009-06-17T09:04:00.002+08:00

Dearest Nurmalah Bte Mat Hussein,
(this post is just for you.)

Happy 18th Birthday to you!!

yesterday was fun, your reaction to our surprise is unforgettable. really!

i hope you really enjoy the surprise that we had for you.

seriously i miss all those times where we used to sit in class/canteen together as one whole gang.

and again, may all your wishes and dreams come true for you.

from your forever tallest girlfriend.

2009-06-14T20:56:00.004+08:00

saturday, which was yesterday.

it was a reunion for me, sera and syarfa.

damn!
i seriously miss those times when we always meet under block 730 (our port) at night after maghrib to study. study for anything.
eventhough syar went to a different secondary school, we still do meet and catch up.
but once we all start poly, jc and sec5. we hardly meet up.
the timings clashed. and sooner or later, we had difficulties to really meet.
sometimes when i meet sera, syar was not there.
and when i meet syar, sera was not there.

but yesterday was pretty funny.
me and syar were walking back home from econ, when someone called out our name.
turned around and it was sera!!
i practically jumped.
we do stay nearby but we hardly meet. same blk somemore sia.
we had this big group hello/bye hug.
and lepak bwh blk for awhile.

to tell the truth, it was pretty awkward and quiet at first because we don't really have much to say compared to last time.
and the last time i checked, our gathering was on helloween nite at nightsafari, which was last october. fuhh!!
that was long!!

yesterday was a something to remember. always.

that US, the 3 "powerpuff girls". will be friends forever.

2009-06-14T20:05:00.004+08:00

i was watching MTV when i saw this video.

fool again by westlife.
members.
shane, mark, brian (no longer a member since don't know when lah), kian and nicky

drowning by backstreet boys.
members.
brian, kevin (no longer a member as of 2007), nick, aj and howie.

all or nothing by otown.
members.
unknown to me.
but what i know is that they are formed by Making of the band season 1.

nsync.
DUH! everyone should know them.
known for breaking up and going solo because they know that they can't make it big if they are still together.
justin timberlake's curly hair.

one love by blue.
this group also tak kekal.
they broke up and went solo.
itu pon tak kekal sia.
their names just disappear. like that.

very old songs right?
i still remember those times when i used to go ga-ga over them.
putting up posters of them in my room so i can see them smile everyday.
hahah. yes. fan-girl. since young. since primary school.
i would save up just to buy their albums ok.
sanggup tak makan!

seriously does all this songs come back to you?
like zooom!!
and you find yourselves thinking back about the songs that once made you love american boybands.

2009-06-14T15:40:00.004+08:00

edited.

countdown...
16th June, the day Ancik finally becomes a real man.
17th June, sweetest girlfriend birthday.
22th June, I'll be losing 2 teeth.
27th June, the day we're meeting FT Island and letting out the korean-ness in us.
29th June (most exciting), the day i'm putting on braces. RED.

나는 이것에 대해 아주 잠시 동안 생각을 해왔어요.
친한 친구와 함께 할 수도 때로는 매우 열심히 일하고있다.
특히, 그녀는 무엇을하고 있는지 아는 사람은 내가하지 않습니다. 비록 모든 게 좋다.
임금, 사람, 물건.
그렇지만 감각은 더 이상 거기에있다.

난 ekeen 경우에는 아무런 소식도보고 ns의 이메일로 전송됩니다.
내가 거기 lah를 바랄뿐입니다.
왜냐하면 그게 내가 다시 밤에 어디 갈 수있는 유일한 장소.

난 그녀처럼 화가는 아니 겠지?
그녀가 어떻게 그 시간입니다.
난 그녀가 다른 친한 친구와 함께 할 때 샌드백 화가되고 싶지 않아.
난 까르푸에 나 때문에 (내 모습을 생각하고), 그들의 우정이 더욱 악화되고 다른 친한 가고 싶지 않아요.
전 그냥 피곤하네요.
심각한 얘기 까르푸에서 일하는 날 완전히 밖으로 배출됩니다.
지금은 많은 것들을 할 수없는 분위기가있어 아무 이유없이.

2009-06-09T02:38:00.002+08:00

countdown...
16th June, the day Ancik finally becomes a real man.
27th June, the day we're meeting FT Island and letting out the korean-ness in us.
29th June (most exciting), the day i'm putting on braces.

fuh!!

kk alright everyone, i'm back.
i don't know why, but fat people said that i was MIA for the past week...
is it?
well... i've been busy working lah and also dental appointments.
my two weeks of school holiday is ending soon. very soon.
i didn't really enjoy it sia.
haish... nevermind.
just putting my mind on work, at least i don't think too much about other things.
what kind of things? it is for me to know, for you to find out.

oh. did i mention that i received a 'warning' letter from school.
haha. ibu read it first.
to tell the truth, she didn't get worked up about it.
instead she wanted to tell that Mark De Oliveria the reasons.

i didn't cabot from school for no reasons.
i pretty much learnt my lesson from year 1.
this semester so far, it's been 3 times.
1st-death of abah...
2nd-no reason...
3rd-Ancik's graduation day...

so yeah. all i have to do now is to email that guy those evidence.
or else i'm out from school. haha.
(not a laughing matter)
kk, i am seriously lazy to type alot.
i'll posting late pictures.

2009-06-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

as you all know that FT Island coming to singapore end of june.
me going. i need to know more about them. so...

i was looking for more info/news about FT Island.
i do their names, their birthday but not alot.
thinking how it would be if they perform in singapore with wonbin instead.
the guy i first liked in FT.
the old FT.

browsing through their old videos on youtube when i found this.

it was heartbreaking.
from the cries of the fans to the artists themselves.
the leader ain't that strong enough. he broke down.
it was a sad scene.
eventhough i'm not like a hardcore fan of them, but i felt the pain.
very sad.

i choked on my own saliva because of that.
i wonder how wonbinnie is doing right now...

2009-06-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

k so today was AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEE!
jeyda's 18th birthday!
we celebrated it in school RP!
weird right? but wtheck.

we had fun.
so much fun.
too much fun.
me, shid, izyan, thirah, nina, adik and bdae girl.
it was supposed to be a surprise. actually it was lah. the thing is we were supposed to come out from somewhere and BOO!
but i guess i was too tall to hide. HAHA!

she saw us from far. not that far.
everything was set up perfectly. the balloons, notes, brownies, THE SHOES!
it was amazing!!

everyone, please guess how many pictures we took today...
i think break record sia.
...... 217 pictures!!
from the beginning til the end.
do you want me to post every single picture??
hmm...

k so here i go lah eh...

to my dearest and beloved babat JEYDA (zahidah qatrunnada),

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!

all the years we've known each other are the BOMB!

the best time. the laughters.

and most importantly is the korean boys we spazz on together.

i will always love you no matter what.

from your tallest girlfriend.

2009-06-01T20:49:00.003+08:00

chak!

if only he's there to wake me up.

i would really love to wake up early in the morning.

sanggup!!

monday.

what did i do?

basically i slept the whole day.

woke up for awhile just to eat medicine.

so tired lah. and it is also to make up for the previous days of lack of sleep.

and also due to the weather again... so hot! malas nk buat pape.

tkleh angkat sia.

i can go on and on about Singapore's freaking weather...

don't make me.

ibu planned to bring me to the dentist today but i slept like a pig just now.

and she couldn't wake me up. so yeah. had to postpone the thing again.

not sure when. ibu is busy tomorrow and wednesday. maybe thursday eh.

wooo braces...!

2009-06-01T20:25:00.004+08:00

fellow earthlings... hello.
i've been stuck with a flu/sorethroat for the past 5 days. damn.
nothing bad.
the weather is seriously killing me.
every single day, i dread going out of the house.
all i want is to sit in front of the fan with the strong wind blowing at me.
once i leave the house, i could feel myself perspiring badly.
my head spins badly each time i walk. so hot. bengal giler sia.

kk. so i've received my pay from Carrefour. 5 weeks of work.
and the pay is sufficient. hehe.
all i have to do is to save the money.
gave ibu some, paid my bills/fines, top-up ezlink.
and done. havent gone shopping yet. i'm not planning to.
nothing to buy, i mean i do have my list of things-to-buy.
but is it a need or want? thats why...

OH! did i mention that we bought the FT Island showcase tickets already.
AHAH! yes we did!! refer to Syarfa's blog for more info.
so yeah. on saturday, me and syar went to IMM to get them.
it wasn't officially sold yet. a small booth was set up in the middle.
2 ft island fans were sitting there eating old chang kee.
haha. we met them and had a little fangirls-shrieking session.
bought our tickets that come with posters. so cool.
i was making syar feel excited for no reason.
i told her to imagine that the group was leaving the stage, and we were standing near the exit area, they shook our hands. hahaha.
dumb and dumber for the day.

~~~~~~
to tell the truth, i wasn't into the showcase. you know why?
coz i'm not an Ft Island hardcore fan compared to BigBang.
i do want to see them perform but not badly.
since it's the first time they coming down, i just think why not just go.
it's not likely that korean bands can easily come to spore to perform.
well it is the band that sang bad woman and missing you right...
i want to see JAEJIN-goat!!
haha.

27th june is when we're gonna have fun.
hope its another memorable day just like 3rd november (is it 3rd or 4th?)
the Kpop concert.

k i'm done talking about kpop.

School's OUT!
i am so going to wake up 1pm everyday and sleep at 4am.
hah... i miss doing that.
screw the system. hahaha.

2009-05-27T13:43:00.002+08:00

oleh kerana aku boring nye pasal...
aku buat ni survey...

1. Besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
Forehead.

2. How do you feel when you wake up in this morning?
Tired and frustrated.

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
My family.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
So-so. I do work to support myself but ibu still support me here & there.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
I want!! But will never can.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
Nope.

7. Do you want someone dead?
Why? Of course not. Wait... maybe HIM.

8. What does the last message say?
“kk masok je. Jumpa pat girl’s toilet lepas event.”

9. What are you thinking right now?
When can I eat at Sakura?

10. Do you wish someone with you right now?
Yes.
11. What time you went to bed last night?
12am.

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt that you're wearing now?
Abang gave it to me, so it’s free.

13. Is someone in your mind?
Hehe. DUH!

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
Ancik.

15. 10 people tagged to do this quiz:
- jeyda
-shidah
-syarfa
- sahira
-izyan
-nina
-amalina
-amirah putri
-jiahan
-ain

16. Who is 2 having relationship with?
Shidah.
Noone. Maybe Changmin uh.

17. Is 3 male or female?
Syarfa.
Female.

18. If 7 & 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
Ama and ain.
They do not know each other. And I don’t think that’s a good idea.

19. What is 1 studying about?
Jeyda.
Technology in arts management.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with 5?
Izyan.
Yesterday in her class.

21. Is 4 single?
Sahira.
Hmm… not that I know of.

22. Say something about 2.
Shidah.
She loves Changmin. Giler Korean boys. Gemok. Hahah. And selekeh.

23. What do you think about 3 & 6 being together?
Syarfa and nina.
I think they do know each other. But I think they don’t really know-know each other. So it
won’t be cool.

24. Describe 9.
Jiahan
Quiet girl. The person I can gossip with about others in class.

25. What will you do if 6 and 7 fight?nina and ama.
It will be funny. Coz they don’t really meet each other.

26. Do you like 8?
Amirah putri.
Hehe. Yeap. Of course I like all my friends. Another Korean fan girl in class.

2009-05-27T13:05:00.002+08:00

ok VIPs, they are officially back.
the latest mv, 'Heaven' is alot different from the previous ones.
this time it's in japanese. and GD's hair is too much.
i seriously do not like his hair. like whassup sia.
he should really get a haircut.

there you go. the new MV. Heaven.
Daesung proves to everyone that he has his driver's license. only him!
and and and lucky girl... GD...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
talk about him... i too need a hair cut. i've been thinking about the haircut for quite long already.
it's just that i'm scared that this hair of mine will lentek and makes the design looks like bettyboop-ish.

k sorry being lazy to update. too lazy already lah.
well basically the week is pretty fast. but i really hope it will slow down when its the holidays.
i want to use it wisely.

class have been fun. grades have been pretty much ok. maintaining it.
my life... has been the same.
work have been ________.
i was thinking about work, when all of a sudden, i felt like joining NS back.
i don't know why, i just miss that place. the feeling. the people.

so jyeah.
ancik finally graduated from NYP.
went to the ceremony with parents. though i dread being in the same place as that ass.
sat in the auditorium and fell asleep for awhile.
saw ancik walked up the stage and shook hands with the GOH. wah...
next year... so fast... i'll be graduating already.
then it will be my turn walking on that stage.
fuhh! i can't wait.

kk its getting boring already.
OH! did i tell you guys that i'm going to put on braces during the 2 weeks holiday?
yes. i am. fast eh. going to book an appointment later on with ibu.
half half. ibu pay half, i pay half.
scary lah seh. i read the process of wearing braces.
it is a LONG process indeed.
aites...
will post somemore once i put it on.

and will put up the graduation pictures soon.

2009-05-20T09:24:00.003+08:00

how i wish i'm fatherless.
no matter how hard i try to respect him every single day, that respect was going to a waste.
day by day my family is breaking apart.
just because of him. that one guy.
i rather he leave the house than one by one of his children leaving the house slowly.
abang left. now he wants me to leave the house. JUST WAIT...!
i have a father but i feel as if i don't.

sometimes i wonder why the hell i have a father like that.
thinking back he have done alot of sins...
if you know me long enough, you will know who and how my father is...
i hate him.

my life isn't going anywhere.
my ezlink and IC is gone.
and now ayah halau me out of the house.
yes. early in the morning.
i have seriously lose ALL the respect that i have for him.
first he was picking a fight with ibu. i have no idea why.
then he compares his children to those kids that enters University.
now finding a trouble with me.

people do know that once i'm angry, everything just comes out of my mouth.
i just let it out.
and i know no matter how hard i cried during the journey to school, it won't change anything.

if you say your life sucks, think about mine.

2009-05-19T13:41:00.004+08:00

they are indeed back.
shid's boys.
yes.
Juliet is out.

teaser

song itself

and to tell the truth... the song is not appealing at all.
when i first heard the song, i was like... it really sounds familiar.
before this when i read the comments on soompi, they were saying that jonghyun sounds like MJ. with the voice screeching etc.

then more comments came in, it says the beat of the song is totally the same as Corbin Bleu's Deal With It.
i agree. it is totally the same.
i liked the rapping part. thats all.

at least jonghyun tried his best to come up with the lyircs...

good luck with the comeback, boys.
hwaiting!!

2009-05-19T13:33:00.003+08:00

gosh! time really pass that fast. soon, it's going to be a week since abah is gone.
the adults are settling all this problem childishly.
just talk it out lah. keeping everything inside doesn't make any sense.

so jyeah. to admit, i didn't feel sad that abah left. i felt happy.
why? because i feel that he is trapped all this while.
people were always fighting and argueing around you.

i didn't go to school and work on that day. even though i was looking forward to both...
the day was so mundane. it was tiring, and freaking sunny.
followed ibu to the kubur to see abah for the very last time.
saw him being buried under all the mud.

i can see ibu falling apart inside. but she still stayed strong.
wak nani, wak nina, cik tati, bibik were crying when they saw abah on the floor.
gosh...
i cant go on anymore...
this is heartbreaking...

2009-05-19T13:26:00.002+08:00

no matter what i will still remember the both of you.
13th may 2009...
abah aka datok, left the world at 0126 on his death bed.
i guess he really wanted to be with nenek...
3 years since nenek left him, he didn't want to live anymore.
he felt like it's the end of the world.

allah love him more.
and right now, i think he's happier up there compared to down here on earth.
now you can smile.

problems after problems.
still havent settle anything yet.
this time its BIG family problem...
i hope the cucu-s are not included. or else it will be trashy.

i will remember abah... love you... even though i'm never close to you.
i will always remember your advise towards me. the last conversation we had...
i will study hard...

promise...

2009-05-10T17:37:00.003+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL THE LADIES WHO HAVE CHILDREN!!
especially to ibu!
giving birth and taking care of children have been hard to you right?
that is why I LOVE YOU!
without you, i won't even be here blogging!

well what did we give ibu?
me and ancik shared money and bought this Tefal frying pan.
its been a long time lah.
we've always talking about getting ibu one whole set of different sizes when we get a full-time job.
slowly lah eh...

anyway ibu showed/reminded what i bought for her last year.
a recipe book. of all the cakes.
she kept the small note that i put inside the book.
awww so sweet of her.
she was saying that she's gonna start collecting gifts from us.

that is when i told her what i want for my birthday. hahah.
something diamond.
i have no idea why...
coz a classmate of mine, her mum bought her a diamond ring for her eighteen birthday.
cool right?
not that i demanded it from ibu.
i just hope ibu will give me something different lah.

PS/to you... what do you want for your coming birthday??

Anyone wants to donate blood?
I WANT!!
this coming weekend, at dhoby ghaut NEL station. 12pm-6pm.
will see you there after work
:D

2009-05-10T17:17:00.003+08:00

these were taken in the MRT while we're on the way back home.

it was crazy. we took some pictures but had to stop because people were looking at us.

and those sitting opposite us were able to see what we were doing through the reflection.

work was fine. got to know more people.

cuci mate jugak at the same time.

wednesday.

thursday.

friday, i took last minute MC because... i fell sick.

so sudden lah.

ibu was saying that i work too much.

but i think its the freaking weather that is to be blame lah.

SO HOT!!

saturday.

i did express lane at b2. wah so fun!

even though its not my first time, its the people that im working with that is fun.

Pathu, Eder, Sharry, etc.

pathu and syar was saying not to step quyi's toes.

coz she's not in the right mood.

... i wonder how in the world one person can have $5600 worth of Carrefour vouchers.

what the hell did he do to get that...

if i have that i can shop like mad lah!!

so anyways.

sunday. today.

work was fine.

met a new auntie. Patricia.

i felt so invisible for the first time.

aku ni tinggi tinggi pon, orang tk nampak.

padahal depan mate.

customers weren't really looking at my counter.

i had to call for them.

no big bags is seriously irritating.

but not having medium bags is too much.

haha.

k adios..!

PS/i notice i haven't been going out much lately!

2009-05-07T09:08:00.000+08:00

I'M FREAKING SLEEPY!!!

I WANT MY BED NOW!!

2009-05-05T22:34:00.003+08:00

BOOO!

2009-05-05T22:06:00.005+08:00

today overall... just sucks.
from the start of the day to the end.
i mean not included the part when i met Ama lah.
just the school part.

ergh!
i was frustrated with my teammates, but i couldn't do anything.
i just kept quiet. my opinions to them were dumb.
so what the hell. who cares.
you reject mine, i ignore everything.
the guys weren't doing anything.
only left me and Amirah to finish everything up.
yes. everything.

in the end the presentation was stupid. we couldn't explain anything because my team could not agree to one thing. the class bombarded us with questions.
the same thing happen again... we couldn't answer them. coz we were dumbfounded ourselves.

after the class ends, i don't know what to say.
all i felt was... i wanted to kill that particular guy/girl.
stuff his/her mouth with my sock. seriously!!

faci came to us, i can see from her face that she was worried about my team. very.
she asked us what happened exactly. i couldn't answer her properly.
still i kept my thoughts to myself.
when it was left to me and Amirah only, faci asked again.
this time we opened up, a little.

i was surprised that she had a good first impression on me.
an A student. hahah. NOT!

kk so the journey tot the mrt station with Amirah was kecoh.
i told her about my semester 2 (year1) experience.
the time i was interrogated by Chitra.

met up with Ama. damn! i miss kpopspazzdom that we always have during our workout day.
sat at the library with her and Jeyda.
the mood was very awkward at first.
until the time we started webcaming.

there's more lah. but hehehehehehe. TOO FUNNY.

2009-05-05T21:25:00.003+08:00

have i talked about my class before?
well. E24E.
lembab sia aku. i know everyone has already blogged about their classmates like on the first week. hahah. now is like the 3rd week already lah.
shish!! cepat sia dah 3rd week. soon it'll be week 15.

k so here i go...
my class is WEEEEEE!!
it took me quite awhile to remember everyone's name.
it took me quite awhile to find who are KPOP fans.
some are SNSD's fan, some are wondergirls' fan, one hates After School.
DBSK, BigBang, SuperJunior, Ukiss, 2pm are loved.

i remember dancing to sorry sorry and gee at the lawn with Cordy.
call me crazy. haha.
everyone kecoh jugak uh.
eventhough i don't really go down for breaks with them, they are fun to be around.

eh, i still havent forget about my dear w34m and w15a.
they are still the best kk.

random pictures that we took that day.
not everyone were there.

^cool right? edited by MG.

2009-05-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

pictures from Fresh Bulghogi.
went there with Ancik, Jai and Syar like 2 weeks ago.
it was AWESOME!
two thumbs up!
the food was splendid. i ate what dbsk/bigbang/2pm have eaten before.

2009-05-05T09:25:00.002+08:00

a random picture that i found in my phone.
gosh!
those legs are mine.
~having trouble to successfully do a handstand in the pool.
while jeyda and adik, they are just having girlfun.

2009-05-02T01:41:00.003+08:00

i seriously won't know what to do once you go to NS.
must you seriously go NS?
damn.
abang's no longer at home.
now it's your turn.
haish...
i'm seriously going to be effing bored.
alone!!
JUNE is your admission...
time will pass by damn fast. in a blink of an eye. just like that.

ibu will be busy working.
ayah too.
left me alone.
alone at home. no way!
.
.
.
dear ancik,

i know you are eager. you know i'm not.

i know you're eager to get that hot body once you finishes NS.

you know you're leaving home soon.

you know i'm not thrill at all.

you know everything.

you're my companion at home.

and now, you will be gone.

2 years. it IS long.

i'm not looking forward to it at all...

love your little sister.

2009-05-02T01:31:00.003+08:00

i'm gonna start posting my fandom.

firstly...

HAPPY BELATED TO WOOYOUNG-SSI...!!
30th april...

the first guy i had a crush on in 2pm.
the guy who always start singing first.
the guy whose english sucks.
the guys whose lips are so _____.
but still the sepet guy. hehe!!

now you're a year older.
.
.
.
secondly...

my BigBang Boys are adorable!!!
the song is so catchy!!
but bae's voice sounds weird...

this treat is for Jeyda as well. LOOK AT YOUR RAIN!!!

to GDragon uh... how come you postponed your solo album again? haiyoh.
again and again...
why make so big news but then......
they say you're going through stress. and depression. chill out.
ignore 2NE1 if they're bugging you so much with their debut and songs/album.
take care love...

:D:D
.
.
.

2009-04-30T10:03:00.004+08:00

SWINE FLU in Mexico and around the world.
This flu is a respiratory disease of pigs caused by type A influenza virus.
Swine flu viruses do not normally infect humans.
However, sporadic human infections with swine flu have occurred in persons with direct exposure to pigs.
There were also documented cases of human-to-human spread of swine flu.

Symptoms of swine flu in humans are similar to symptoms of regular human seasonal flu.
An early symptom is high fever, and this can be followed by cough, sore throat, runny nose, and sometimes breathlessness a few days later.

haish... another tragic case.
last time was SARS then it was hand-mouth-food disease... bird flu... etc...
tak habishabis sia.

what's going on with this world.
one after another.
~~~~~~~~~~~
yesterday, me ancik and ibu had a discussion about it.
ancik was saying that in the hospital, there are zones that don't allow random staffs to enter it,
only when you're fully-geared. masks gloves etc...
wow. seriously this thing, is spreading very fast...

k so we all walked around SSC since we wanted to get a new wireless port.
did i mentioned that ancik bought korean dvds?
YES.
he did. unbelievable.
Night After Night. Boys Before Flowers. Full House.
he kept saying that ibu wants to watch them. like real...

the point of meeting them... because ibu have to buy ancik a new specs for NS.
kecoh sia. he die die wants something like abang's one. those sports type.
last last, he got this thick normal black specs.
and ibu bought me one too. same as ancik's. but blue colour.
luckily not red right?

on the way back, we passed by Giant. gosh. it was empty.
seripusly empty. there was a single person queueing to purchase anything.
how come at Carrefour, there's forever a queue?...

2009-04-30T09:24:00.005+08:00

pictures for abang's birthday. OH! ibu loved the cake. she ate nearly half of it herself...

ish ish ish.

2009-04-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 25th ANNIVERSARY TO IBUAYAH!!
HAPPY 23th BIRTHDAY TO ABANG!!

double happiness? hmm...
i guess not.
both ayah&ibu working till late at night = bad news.
abang coming back to celebrate with us = good news.

i just a feeling that abang wants to celebrate his birthday at home with everyone, but he didn't know that ibu&ayah are working. so its kinda a waste lah.
i know that they really wants to see abang.

well abang came early. i was pretty much missing him.
can't believe i'm saying this. but he is still my brother.
i bought a cake for both occasions.
a small cake. mango.
abang was asking about everything.

we took candid shots.
it feels like us siblings are the ones there to celebrate it with him.
prepared everything, he cut his cake.
i hope he appreciate everything uh. or else sad sia.

and again. happy birthday yo. i didn't get you a present because i didn't have time lah.
enjoy it. and thanks for the advise...
:):)
~~~~~~~~~~~
so how has life been? hmm...
saturday... the day we ate what koreans have been eating all this while.
Fresh Bulgogi. fuh!!
since ancik got his pay, he was like "lets go eat there lah."
so exciting.
lettuce wraps. fresh kimchi. bimbimbap.
ahhhh... i want to eat BIMBIMBAP again!!
it was my first time, and it is totally awesome!
will post all the pictures soon.
:D

oh! i made new friends too. at work lah.
finally i have people to talk to.
there's KaiEn-RP freshman.
Elaine (i think thats her name lah)-SP's year 3.5.
Jonathan. Guava. ScaryGuy.
people there were saying that aku ni pemalu. shish!
i'm syarfa's new bouncer. hahah!

AND i have my own locker already!
so now i don't have to keep putting 20cent. and end up spending $1.00 on that.
seriously thankyou to everyone.
sunday was pretty happening.
i did express counter at b2.
and one thing... it is boring...
hahah.
i was given a chair to sit on. (luckily)
i thought i was shortage of $10 but i was wrong. nasib perut.

i can't wait to work again.
friday no school... labour day. hehe! double pay!!

PS/it keeps bleeding. you do know i can help you right? don't worry...

2009-04-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE SMALL EYED BROTHERS.
KIM JONG KOOK
&
KANG DAESUNG

even when you open your eyes to the maximum, it is still small.
family outing HWAITING!!
keep the scandal going on!!

25 april...

26 april...

2009-04-25T01:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEBUM-ssi.
the shortest leader born in seattle.
the proud leader of 2pm.
best aecrobatic skill ever.
and seriously the nicest abs on that short body.
hahaha!
happy 22th/23rd birthday!

2009-04-25T00:53:00.002+08:00

i hate myself for being useless.
i hate myself for being the younger than other.
i hate that i'm a girl who can't really be one.
i hate myself for being bullied by others.
i hate myself that people are able to step on me so easily.
i hate myself for not speaking up.
i just hate ME.

i feel, sound, AM depressed.
i don't know why.
i may look strong but i'm not.
i'm just acting like one.
i'm good at helping others but not myself.

if this is life, i don't know what to do already.
i feel like crying. i want to cry.
i want wail and screaming loudly to just let it out.
i don't know what to do already.

i really have noone to talk to.
everytime i come back home from either work or school, everyone is either sleeping, out and about.
ibu is always talking about umar and aishah and bibik.
ayah never talks to me about stuff.
ancik prioritise his friends more.
abang MIA.
i feel empty nowadays.
who can i talk to?

i always envy those families that are so tight. tighter than mine.
u can call mine ______.
i just need someone i can talk everything to.
someone who will never get bored.
who?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i went to work alone.
yes. alone. was supposed to go with jeyd.
but long story.

i was questioned by Meera and Jeeva about Jeyd.
but i just kept quiet. i didn't know what to do.

i worked alone at b2. noone to talk to at all.
there was noone i know there.
at that very moment, what i really want was to see syar's smiling face and hear jeyd's laughter.
only that can cheer me up.
at least i know i'm not alone.
but there was none.
but i know i was alone to work there.

at the moment, i really wanted to quit.
leave this job as well.
but i'm not a quitter.
all i knew was that to tahan all this crap, earn the money.

to add it in, Jeeva was giving me that face again.
seriously... its not my fault that customers come to me with items that doesn't have barcode.
its not my fault that they want to cancel item last minute.
i just have to get use to Jeeva.
i was getting on his nerves, he was getting onto mine.
what to do...
he kept giving me that sentence.
"jangan susah kan aku boleh tak?"
"terima kaseh eh!?"
all so sacarstic.

i was so scared of getting scolded by Jeeva. i told the security that in malay.
(didn't know that the customer understood malay though)
she was siding me all the way when Jeeva came by.
she said, don't scold her, its not her fault.
she told me not to worry.
i was glad these people do exist.
:):)

you know what...
i think i need to get back to my kpop world now.
bye.

2009-04-24T12:58:00.003+08:00

pictures spam!!

Monday, we slacked while doing RJs together.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Tuesday we still slack and still doing RJs together.

2009-04-23T09:11:00.003+08:00

haven't been updating because i was too tired.
didn't know that school can do this to me.

Day 1
Day 2
Day 3

Day 4 of school...
class, e24e.

k so now finally everyone in class is of the same course.
my classmates are kinda cool.
every single one have their own interests.
games. singing. dancing. smoking. slacking. everything.

everyone started opening up to each other slowly. day by day.
going breaks together, going home together.

in one week i have 2 days of photography learning. like what.
photoshop. gosh. IT'S PHOTOSHOP.
i don't even know how to use it lah.
like what button is for what.
the facilitator was like i want everyone to know photoshop at the tip of your fingers.
difficult sia.
i am indeed a noob when it comes to photoshop.

overall school has been just calm...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
thursday, finally work!!
hehe. k i was pretty nervous and excited lah.
school was awesome. Justyn (facilitator) was making the day go by fast.
kk so me and jeyd rushed to work after meeting ayah and doing our RJs.
i was so sleepy. VERY.

but hey, have to get use to it right...
so yeah... we reached work exactly on time. 5.45pm.
then something happen. kecoh lah. my white uniform had this big brown chocolate stain on it.
TSK!
thats when i really panicked. ergh!
it can't be washed at all.

saw Meera, she was like ah, late uh?
we weren't exactly late, just that the whole situation of changing shirts and stuff macam siak.

so we were assigned to open individual counters. side by side.
luckily lah, i will never make it if it was someone else beside me.
jeeva was teaching us what to do and everything.
i have to admit i suck at it.
i think i called for help more than 10 times.
gosh!
"kau nari jangan buat aku mati boleh tak?"
jeeva said that to me.
a customer stare at me for doing her items right.
i overcharge another french customer by alot. imagine there's 14 packets of milk, but i charged her 50 packets.
i gave customers alot of coins change just because there was no more $2notes.
imagine how pissed i was.
i yelled at jeeva for the very first time. and now i'm scared. great!
stupid me!
oh i was very deaf. 72 became 732. 108 became 101. ahahahaha. DUMB!

so yeah i was very thirsty, damn dry. i can feel my throat aching already.
in my heart i was cursing and swearing every single PLU that i need to search.
but whatever lah. by 1030pm, it was time to close. Wari came to teach me.
he was fast, i was slow.

went to the office to count our money. count here count there.
thats when the whole drama happens.
i don't know what to say already.
up to you.
it's not your cup of tea, my wrong. i apologize.
you have all the right to be pissed. twice you punked me. its okay.
i've gotten used to it.
sorry...

went back home with syarfa. and again she was my listening ear. i was hers.
we talked at the bustop until 1am while snacking. hahah. biase jugak.
and syar, that box contains SWEETS. not what you and me think ok.
paiseh sia aku.

another day of work ahead. woohoo!!

2009-04-17T01:59:00.003+08:00

k here i go with my first day of work at carrefour (pronounce it properly...)
me and jeyd kinda reached there late lah.
we do have our own reasons.
SCHOOL...
we changed to our carrefour uniform.
white is a nice colour for my skin tone. LOL.

luckily there was syar and ain. they were really a great help especially ain.
she really showed us the back way. fuhh. the smell sungguh wangi...
kept our bags.
had to do alot of things before we are able to start our real job.
headed out to find someone (i forgot the name).
she separated me and jeyd. normal lah.
jeyd was at express counter.
and me... i was at counter 6 (i didn't that that counter will always be busy.)
anyway it was an experience for me.
i was pretty busy packing the stuff into the plastic bags. (packer for the night)
my partner was Fancy. cool name right?
k she was a little stubborn and fierce lah. toward to customers lah.

seriously there were so many customers. rushing during my first hour.
but slowly slowly i can manage lah.
i didn't touch the cashier yet.
it SO different from NS's one. more kecoh.
eventhough the whole thing is just cash and closing.
the ways of doing so is TOTALLY different.

BUT WORK WAS FUN!!!
I'M STARTING TO LIKE IT.
eventhough my right arm is aching badly.
my backbone is _______.
no wonder syar say can lose weight. hahaha.
stayed until closing. saw how everything was done properly.
k Fancy did everything so bloody fast lah. i think i need to learn it from someone again.
TEACH ME!!

oh! i saw Fizah. she came to my counter and pay. damn i miss her sia.
her fiance was the one who saw me first and interrogated me about work. haish...
first i saw nadiah.L and amira. i really really want them to come back to work sia.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
went off with the others. made new friends.
took the mrt, bounce back.
and we watched Family Outing on the train.
i swear to you, the girls were laughing. LOUDLY.
paisah sia. other people on the train were looking at us weirdly.
oh! and someone vomitted in the train. eeeeeeee.
the smell of beer, rotten apple and onion.
disgusting!!!

went down at Yishun.
decided to get supper with syar. coz seriously i was freaking hungry.
we ordered meegoreng, nasigoreng and rotijohn.
kate perangai gemuk mah.
it was my treat.

its been a long time since i really sit down and eat with her.
talking to syar about everything really makes me feel better.
she was ready to listen to everything.
from A-Z.
hope i don't bore you.
i can talk alot you see.
the food just kept me going...

anyways i love you. :D:D
we walked home. drank our cheap drinks.
i am proud to say i'm a colleague of syarfa-onn.

k before i go...
here's something HOT.
new hairstyle. better dance move. again & again...

this is when junho dance. that part is when he moved my heart. HAHA!
watch from 1:18 onwards. if you're a fan of Rain. here you go...

2009-04-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

Boom!

K yesterday was the Carrefour cashier training. I don’t know why but i realised that i was nervous. I couldn’t get any sleep, tossing and turning until the time was already 6am. So i thought i need to do something so i wouldn’t think much about it, surf the net-and found 2pm and teaser... hehe! HOT!

“I say what time is it now?!” the neber die tattoo. LOL!

K so i dressed up normally.
Formally.
Just a plain polo t and black jeans.
Went off to meet jeyda.
This time she’s late. Haha.
Long way due to dogs.
Time check it was already 0830, we have to reach there by 0930.
And it’s not cool to be there late for the first day.
Something like first impression mah.

One word! LOST!
We were walking everywhere just to find that tower 3 level 4.
Ergh!
It really got on my nerves coz my sense of direction really suck.
Once we reached that place, luckily they haven’t start anything.

The whole training went well, pretty cool.
Meera and Hamidah are funny people!
Seriously they can really change the whole mood.
Even though they were serious about work, i can sense that other than work, they are still human.
Oh! Meera is a facilitator in RP.
So yes, if i happened to do something in school or anything (lie to her to avoid work), she will find out easily.

We were finalized after taking a picture for our pass, got our uniforms (had to pay $20 down payment for it).
The next time for training cum working is on Thursday, me and jeyda will be at Plaza Singapura. Scary lah sey.
Luckily got Syarfa there.
Fuhh!
Help me anything happen kk.

:D:D

I can’t wait for Thursday.
I have everything well-planned already.
It’s just up to me to do follow it well.
Right now i have to keep up with 2 jobs.
Friday, Saturday and Sunday i’ll be working for both jobs.
Just have to rush here and there.
Only this week lah.
Next week school reopens already.
So yeah.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Today i’ll be working at NS, E1 (shift 1)...
Should i do closing today? I have no members sia.
Everyone go back at 2230, and i’ll be left alone.
Not cool.
Should i go back?
Or should i just stay and earn the money?

PS/life is not cool at this point of time.

2009-04-14T06:38:00.003+08:00

they are back people!!!!!!!!!
a few more days...
seriously if the album is interesting enough, i might end up buying it.
HOT!

and another one...!

2pm

2009-04-13T02:19:00.002+08:00

sunday.
how did it go?
a lazy sunday.
i went to work.

luckily i was schduled to work in Eshop again.
i will really really hate it if i'm in F.
reached home pretty early.
and all i have to say the journey to work is pretty warm.
i can feel sweat trickling down my spine.
ironed my top and rushed to store room.
why?
the only place where the aircon is actually working well.
brought up my 'storybook'. took my time coz i just don't want to start work that early.

Eshop with Kent. was pretty much fun.
at least he can entertain me lah.
at least he can tahan my korean mp3.
haha. not everyone appreciate korean songs k.

i can't stop thinking about what Ekeen asked me yesterday.
"Nari senyap jer..."
i was standing in the office, thinking why she said that.
"Member semua dah takde eh?"
and that time really make me think why the hell i'm still working there.
from there i know that Ekeen understands how i feel all this time...

did i mention that a small korean boy came up to me and asked me if that is a korean song being played?
well yes. the song is, 'Because I'm Stupid by SS501'.
hehe. he and his friends were singing along.
cute.
and when BigBang's HaruHaru acoustic version was being played, a lady stayed in the shop and sang along. she smiled at me, and i know what she was thinking immediately.
ahahaha.

the clock was ticking. somehow quite fast...
and it was already time to go home!!
clocked out.

KENT. birthday present for her. my foot. HAHAHA!!
it was so obvious you are hitting on her lah!!
btw the chocolates were NICE!
hahaha. next time check the present first.
write something in the card. sincerely and not a plain one like that.

try harder!!!

PS/tuesday.

2009-04-13T01:31:00.002+08:00

yoz.
on saturday, my aunt and uncle from KL, came down.
kecoh sia dorang.
well last time they wanted to Spore, but couldn't because they (the whole family don't really have a passport).
and i think everyone should know that in Malaysia, the passports cost like 300rm each.
thats why not many have it.
early in the morning, ibu woke me up looking all excited.
and all i thought was,"buang tebiat ke si die ni."
"cik limah dah otw dah spore!"
the first thing that came to mind was...
with who? with her children? and yes. memories came back...
k long story.

i didn't get to sambut cik limah and husband.
coz i had to go to work.
and seriously at work, i was thinking where the heck am i gonna sleep since they are going to be in my room.
work wasn't any interesting as well.
i had Sharon to pour out my feelings but that wasn't long lah.
WeeWee was just layaning my tantrums. its fun to have a gay friend you see.
closing was so quiet. there wasn't the normal talking across each other shops anymore.
so quiet. too quiet.
all i could do was sing along to the korean songs loudly by myself.
k that sound totally pathetic.
haish...

i once asked myself, if retail job is my thing.
but i guess the answer is right in my face.

went back home having alot of things on my mind.
ibu told me to sleep in her room. YES UH!! BIG BED!!
well cik limah brought my favourite dodol. alot of kerepek! malaysia style.

ibu said that they were going back early in the morning.
haish... if only they had planned everything with their family.
at least we can bring them around Spore. too soon for them to go back.
i don't think they know what is where.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
k now imagine me sleeping case tak ingat dunia gitu.
it was 8 in the morning.
and cik limah enters the room to bid her farewell.
i know i know, i should have woke up early right? to send her off.
but i couldn't wake up at all.
she said bye, and said a few things ( i can't even remember anything coz my mind was still dreaming).
i salamed her and in her hands, there was something...
a 50rm note.
i had no choice but take it and go back to sleep.

oh. ibu brought them to geylang to go shopping.
buy things that they can bring back to KL.

gosh i really miss their house. the whole family there.
the place where i learn how to ride a bike.
the place we can ride bikes without helmets.
the place where firecrackers are legal!!

i want to go there again!!!
ibu said in june. once ancik get his holidays settled.
k i'm done.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2009-04-11T15:21:00.002+08:00

yoz.
did i say that carefour called me and jeyd??
oh yes they did. while we were in the toilet after swimming.
coolios!!!

they called us to come down for a training at suntec city at 9.30am.
fuuhh.
k thats early.
formal wear, cashiering.

i seriously hope for the best.
figers cross.

2009-04-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

IZYAN'S HOUSE.

FUN.

MONOPOLY.

FUN.

BANKRUPTCY.

FUN. NOT.

CURLS.

FUN.

MAMMA MIA DVD.

FUN.

FOOD.

FUN.

2009-04-11T00:22:00.004+08:00

so when did i last post?
hmm...
well well well, two days ago, i went to work. and it totally suck.
i just don't want to talk more about it.

on thursday, it was fun.
went swimming with girlfriends.
met up with jeyd at 10, coz we wanted to get some stuff first.
then wait up for adik at ther house at 11. (the plan was to meet up at 11am)
by the time we reached at the swimming pool, it was already 1130am.
so yeah. kinda janji melayu.
did i mention we rode bicycles.
ahuh.
it was greeeaaattt.
the wind brushing through the hair. fuhhh.

izyan came (i have no idea what time coz i couldn't see the time at all).
aku kan potek.
she brought mee hoon goreng. oooh. right timing.
with my finger food. wooo. sedap.

oh yar. i finally manage to do a handstand/somersault... in the water...
and i slightly sprained my ankle.
and my right arm is aching.

perutku buncit sia. orang gemok per.

and here's the best part...
k imagine shid tumpang jeyd, me alone, izyan tumpang adik.
chaotic. it was drizzling. we rushed to get food (lunch) and headed to nina's house.
the place where everyone nearly fell asleep. so cosy.
seriously. we karaoke-d for awhile. all the old malay songs.
and watched K-Nite. funny!

slowly, one by one's head had already landed on the pillow.
going back home was so hard. so sleepy and tiring.

k adios lah. malas nak type lagi.

2009-04-07T23:51:00.001+08:00

AKU LAPAR!!!!

2009-04-07T01:42:00.003+08:00

good morning!!
i've just finished watching Bride Of Wars.
seriously the movie deserves 2 thumbs up.
the story line was well planned. i like...
the friendship was there. so tight.
watching it all alone in the living room makes me remember the past few years of friendship i made.
wow. its like sudden flashbacks...

so anyway.
i'm rotting at home.
but there's no worms on me lah.
basically i spend my day eating, eating, laying around in the house doing nothing.
there's nothing to do at home, coz by the time i wake up, all the housework is already done by ibu.
i know, aku kan anak perempuan. kene tolong ni sume. but...
i don't know lah.
i'll do it tomorrow since ibu will not be at home the whole day.
nobody will be at home.
ayah keje, ancik keje, ibu pon keje.
i'm left with CATS only. if only they can talk...

ouh. speaking of cats...

I AM SINCERELY ASKING EVERYONE OUT THERE WHO IS READING THIS, WHO IS GENEROUS ENOUGH TO DONATE THEIR OLD NEWSPAPER TO ME.

INSTEAD OF THROWING THEM AWAY, GIVE IT TO ME.

ANYONE LAH.

JUST CALL ME IF YOU'RE WILLING TO DONATE.

THANK YOU.

ibu wants them coz Ska (the smallest kitten) has bladder problem. he is kept in the cage for the time being, before we sent him to the vet.
and yes, ibu have been asking around for newspaper, and da abes pon sume.
so its my turn to ask. saling tolong menolong.

2009-04-06T03:09:00.006+08:00

so pretty much 4th april went well.

i'll just give snips of here and there.

we went to pasar tani, this breakfast place (regulars), mini kelantan/desaru, jusco.

AND AND AND BASKIN ROBBINS!!!
all along i thought it only exists in korea and usa.
hehe. but in jusco, there is one!!!!
i was so excited. because that is the same product that BIGBANG was endorsing.
ahhh...
only shid knows there's one. everyone were like... huh?
i still have that tune in my head. baskin robbins 31.
the icecream tasted so fine.
well a little bit like benNjerrys. but the flavours are fuhhhhh.
I LIKE~
total mouth watering...
next we went to pelentong's giant.
there is where the real shopping began.
i mean groceries.
grabbed a trolley and in we go...

went off to get lunch/early dinner.
dominos!!!!
ahhh... the cheese is so ____.
eat it while its hot!
puas hati ah!!

so pandan city. it was a place that i went before but didn't really go into it.

the items there are TOTALLY gerek.

eventhough it's like a pasarmalam. it was cheapppp.

i really like.

me and jeyd managed to get shoes there though.

timecheck it was pretty late lah. thats what ayah claim.

i kinda promised them that we will go to angsana to get dunkin donuts.

ayah had no choice but to turn back.

shopping kat situ dah tk macam shopping pon.

rushing giler.

ayah ni pon satu takot sangat ngan jam ni sume.

tsk!

i was pretty much pissed with ayah in the car.

leceh sia. from the start jer dah bising.

but i was taking it in, not letting it out.

sabar jelah. i want to cry when ayah started his nonsense.

in front of my friends some more.

malu sia with his perangai gitu.

everything went well.

we all reached singapore safely.

alhamdulillah.

PS/hey little monkey, some day something will happen to you. don't worry. i'll pray hard that you will rejoin back your family. one day.

how i wish i could do something for it. if only... haish... poor thing. sorry...

2009-04-06T01:51:00.002+08:00

hello.
i just finished watching OngBak 3 with ayah.
and to tell the truth, the ending is too hanging already.
or did i not understand the story at all? hmm...
the show is pretty much about avenge, love, family and total FIGHT.

so yeah.
today's work a total boredom.
i was the only one non-chinese.
so imagine how i feel sia.
everyone were busy talking at the counter, while i was busy hanging shirts.
haish... well this is life when you have noone who can talk to you.
kusum resigned.
amira works/i'm on off. vice versa. so how do we meet?
nadiah.l blocks one whole month.
nadiah.h quits when school starts.
nina quits end of the month.
lizzie? i don't give a damn.
ekeen is there forever lah.
clarice will be back in 4 months.
i don't know lah.
my members dah gone, dah mendak sia.

ouh and there was this royalty family who came down and bought $400++ worth of plush.
gosh! why? coz their son was happily holding the toys and in goes the plush into the shopping bags.
they are the ones who don't think twice if they should buy it or not, they didn't even know what they put inside the the bag. and just pay for it.
(how i know?) well i was asked to be their escort while they shopped.
can you imagine how jealous i was of that small kid....
lucky boy.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i hate it when this happens...

PS/time for a new beginning...

2009-04-03T01:32:00.001+08:00

this is a tribute to the WONDERGIRLS' NOBODY craze at Night Safari.

i totally like this one.
can someone help me rip it??

2009-04-02T20:41:00.004+08:00

hello.

k so, today me and jeyda met up.
why?
coz syarfa told me that there's job vacany at her workplace.
since i was eager to look for another job, and jeyda was dying to find one too.
i decided to go along with it and ajak jeyda along.

kecoh sia. it took me quite awhile to wake up.
i set the alarm clock at 1130, but woke up at 1330.
i don't know why.
ibu just goreng sambal fish, so i quickly grabbed a plate of rice and hurriedly eat.
macam tak baguskan kalau ibu dah penatpenat masak abe kite tak makan.
so yeah.

i bathe and quickly dressed up.
a black tee and jeans. i seriously don't know what to wear for an interview.
put on my shoes and zoom to meet syarfa.
well i was late lah. again...
janji meet kol 2 but hehe...
we met up with jeyda at the mrt station. this time she LATE.
hahah.

oh, i saw hyrul anuar. BIG DEAL.
we made our way into the train, where we kecoh sia.
the first time ever i saw a giant's fingerprint.
the first time a bangla stood infront (like directly depan muka)of me when i was talking to jeyda.
the first time it 'rained' inside the train.

reached carefour, filled up the application form, and went for the interview.
quite short one ne.
after that we rounding in carefour. seriously if both of us had the money, we will fill up the basket with icecream.
MARS. SMARTIES. everything.
we were acting like tengah puasa.
takde duit nye pasal.
tkpe, t time kt johore, i will fill up the trolley. abes uh ibu.
YEAHAAHAHAHAHA.

basically me and jeyda went around PS, went into CC and saw this girl holding a BOF poster.
so BIG. then got one GD's poster alone. so big. him alone...!!
k namind i didn't buy lah. takde duit.
so we went to eat dinner.
i sort of 'opened up' to jeyda lah.
hahah. k jeyda, that was the past lah...! now is present.
i cherish our FAT friendship. hehehe.
saranghaeyou!!
*doing the nickhun wink*

and ouh. i fell asleep in the train. haha. buruk sia.
my head was everywhere.

i didn't go to work. NO-SHOW. because aku malas. to work with gayboy, thats the last thing i want to do. will go back on sunday lah.

tomorrow, i will be going with ancik to take the car. ODDYSE is it? yar. i don't know how to spell it. fetch ibu home, meet up with ayah to get dinner together.

PS/bedok corner here we come!!

and SATURDAY...!!!!!!!

and too abang. too bad lah.

2009-04-02T01:04:00.004+08:00

so today was just fine...
started off with me waking at 1pm (thats normal lah)
then helped ibu prepare the ingredients for the cookies she planned to bake.
while ibu cooked fishNchips.
oooohhh. it was feeling to the max.

ok so, i promised to meet jeyda to repair bicycle at 3pm.
but well i thought kinda janji melayu, so i took my time lah.
watched BOF episode25... i kinda hated the ending. so ergh!
but hey, GaEul and YiJung... they got together. haha. cute.
timecheck it was already 3.15pm, still no sms from jeyda.
then she msged, in 5mins-go down.
like shit, i havent bath yet loh.
rush like mad, only to find out i have to break the code.
the padlock is so old-school lah.
and i know, i was already late. sorry.

so yeah.
met up with her. and walked to the bicycle shop to get it fixed.
and i had to pay freaking $32 bucks sia.
nevermind, that bike will be my source of travelling from now on.

after that we headed to khatib to wait for the rest, but we ended up below shid's house.
we were asked to come up. so we went to her house, her cousin was there.

and she was watching musicbank (something i missed on monday)...
kak yam right? yeah. we all were talking about kpop. normal lah.
ate pengat that shid's mum made. apparently i was too full to eat the meegoreng.
so jeyda kebas sume.
GEMOK.
haha. k not.

we left the house at 6pm, didnt really know where to play baddy.
but we still headed for the stadium (packed with boys-budakbudak madrasah)to do our usual runs.
we still didnt get to play baddy since that pakcik warned us.
so we talked abit and discussed about the people there. observing every single one there.
AND I FOUND A RED EVERLAST WATCH.
k it is a little damage (just the long scratch on it), but who cares...
still can use mah.

by the time the bell rung. tanda untuk kite beredar yer.
on the way to go to our normal spot, we went for car-hunting.
the coolest thing to do after running.
k we were just looking for the car that ibu rented for saturday.
we were like going round, examining each family cars that we came across.
hahaha. at last we found it. the car is lebar. sajak untuk orangorang gemok.
coolest. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT DAY.

we played UNO at the normal place.
and me... i rushed off to buy donut. its called hungry...!!
i cycled home. and i was going fast. extremely fast. the wind was so refreshing.
i will do that again soon. at night. alone.

klah. bye.

PS/i have alot of freshly baked cookies at home.

2009-03-31T09:24:00.003+08:00

hello. finally i'm able to blog.
actually i wanted to blog the first thing when i reach home on saturday after work.
but then when i tried to log on, it keeps saying that the user logon has expired.
blah blah blah.
because of that i had to go to RP again. tsk!

ok so what happen on saturday?
it was finally the audit day.
amazingly i managed to wake up early, exactly 7.15am, i woke up and made breakfast for myself.
since ayah said he was going to sene me to work, i took my time to get ready.
left home at 8.30am, and i was the third to reach. zzzzzz.
kate jer kene sampai by 8.45am.... merepek sia.
by 9.10am, everyone was ready.
went up to the shop only at 9.30am.
so i was partnered up with Ronny (my future executive)...
i hated being there the whole time with him.
he switched roles with me, he did the easy job. well i guess he had the right to do...
i was already pissed by then.
then everyone started counting. the place was becoming a mess. kecoh abes nye.
the weather was unbearable. the aircon in the shop was useless.

so anyway i didn't much work. why? because ronny was doing the job himself, i think he like it like that. somehow i get the feeling that i was a hindrance. heck care lah. he had better help from others though.
i was like a noob in Safari shop. since i'm a 'villager', what am i suppose to know...

the whole point i want to say about my saturday was that it totally sucks.
firstly i was told that sunday's auditing, i didn't have to come because Ekeen had me replaced by HER.
when Serene told me that, i was totally shocked.
"Ekeen never tell you uh? She change it 4 days ago. Lizzie coming instead."
all the things came to my mind. i thought they already submit the names and its already confirmed by the heads. why can it be easily changed just because SHE wants to come for auditing.
actually i've heard about this but i don't really care because i thought it doesn't affect me mah.
BUT... i was wrong. she took my place.
THEY DID THE WRONG THING.
it wasn't about the work that i care of, its just that they make HER their priority.
and i hate it when it comes to biasness.

the whole time when i was doing my own shift, i was so mad. my face tells it all.
Ekeen came to me to tell me about Sunday.
i didn't even want to look at her face because i was disappointed with her.
and the best thing is that i was working with WeeKiat (the BEST informer of my life).
he was telling Ekeen everything i was doing in the shop (informing her if i got say anything about the auditing).
luckily i have Kusum and Amira, they were there to comfort me the whole time.
my 6.5hrs of working, the whole time i felt like crying.
i couldn't tahan already.
so many thing were in my head. but i didn't have the guts to say it out.
the girls were telling me to ask Ekeen, let it out and get it back.
but...

so yeah, i didn't even want to see her face.
and the more HER name came out, the more i hate HER.

the whole thing that goes right was when i was going home. Dino made my day.
he made me laugh all the way.
-------------------------
so sunday i woke up pretty late. took my time to do everything since i don't really have to rush to work.
i dreaded going to work because no members at all.
i went alone, met up with Nadiah.
and thats when she told me that SHE didn't come for auditing!!
SHE woke up late, blah blah blah.
so i guess you guys got played back.
somehow i realise Ekeen was good... epsecially to me. she went into the storeroom to eat, i wanted to leave quckily, and thats when she started talking about Wondergirls.
HAHA!

K EVERYONE...

PEOPLE IN NS, ARE NOW ADDICTED TO WONDERGIRLS.

sunday, only Ekeen incharge. she told us to do anything as long as we do work. hehe.
all of a sudden, we all were dancing to wondergirls-nobody.
happily.
-------------------------------
ok so on monday i went to RP alone. chey!
Zul independent sia!!
hahah. i just couldn't tahan already. not able to use my laptop at all is like me going out with shoes. k lame.
everything took 10mins to be done. and i was already on my way to the zoo to pay jeyd a visit.
and also the elephants lah.
damn! i miss them so much.
but i didn't get to touch them uh.
we just hang out after jeyd ended work.
its been a long time since i used laptop in the zoo...

FYI/i've started sewing. jeans. i'm done with a vest. will post the picture once i adjust abit.
it was tiring. and i think i'm gonna start a blogshop just for fat people clothes. i wanna try sell off my creations.

2009-03-28T00:28:00.006+08:00

hello!
firstly, i would like to say bon voyage to fellow Clarice.
well she will be flying (wait, i think she flew off already) to Japan today.
why? to study. she's finishing her last semester in Japan.
i know it's only for 4 months and i know she are longing to go to the country that she totally loves the most.

she's the only hardcore-fanatic-fangirl-friend that i have in NS.
hope she gets to see arashi over there.
take care!!

and so my blogging continues...
work have been chaotic lately.
just becuase we have audit-thingy to do during the weekends.
this whole week is all about stocktake.
counting every single thing. just to make sure everything tellys up.
so yeah. i'm included in the audit-thingy.
and i have to report to work at 9am. haish...
still... its call MONEY yo!

ok so just now work was fun. even when i was stuck with Sybil, it was getting better.
the crowd was BIG.
but we both manage to look after the shop well.
AND in village itself we manage to earn $1000+.
hehe! i'm so happy. why? hehe. it just happens.

fyi; i hate april's work schedule. too much already. TOO MUCH!
new executive (bloody shit), interns are still there.
nomore shift 1 for us, nomore shift-closing also.
seriously everyone is looking for a new job.
haish.....

anyway. enough about work.
time for my BigBang rants.
so yeah. the new female-bigbang-group's name has been announced. and it is... 21.
what a name.
i admit i'm jealous of them because they get to work with BB every now and then.
since they are indeed in the same company. YG.
GD is producing songs for them...
haish...
and seriously i thought BB was going to US for some trainings or something.
how come they are still in korea? and now GD's solo album is releasing soon.
i'm lost, so fill me in...

AKU JEALOUS!!! terlampau jealous.
and Syar was saying what if they fall in love, since they are working together too...

to Siti Syarfa Bte Jamil...

dearest Daesung said it once, "I will save family and die with BigBang."

so what i'm trying to say is that.... i will use that one and only buoy to save you, and then... die with FATS. why? because i love both of you equally.

Saranghamida. *doing the hand sign*

2009-03-23T20:48:00.003+08:00

ok so yesterday i was bloody bored.

and guess what i did.

i bake strawberry cheesecake, it was quite simple coz i bought the instant one.

Jell-O No Bake.

it was so easy that everything was done within 30minutes.

the preparations was easy for beginners like me to follow.

so this is the result. except that part lah, ibu ate it without me knowing.

it is not recommended for diabetic people, why?

because the whole read part, which is the strawberry topping, was so freaking sweet.

right now i have to start a low-sugar diet coz you never know what will happen.

ibu was like,"Manis sangat, takmo makan banyak sangat, nanti kencing manis!"

but in the end she was the one who took the last piece on the plate.

HAHA.so that went really well. ibu wanted to make cheesecake brownie, but then...

she was too tired coz since morning, she was already baking kekgulung.

alot of them... alot of nutella swiss rolls.

and due to that... ibu keeps reminding me to learn how to bake quickly.

she just wants someone to pass down her knowledge of baking to.

and that someone is totally me.

its not that i don't want, its just that i'm lazy.

i know i'm having my holidays now, i just want to enjoy it.

haish... i just hope she understands.

i just want to take everything slow...

like go with the flow...

ibu was trying to reward herself with KFC (something that she has been craving since forever).

she asked us to order chicken for her.

ibu. ibu. she trying to fill her stomach by making us fat as well. haha.

at least ibu belanje lah. everything was so delicious.

k people, a person have nothing else to type here.

2009-03-22T01:39:00.003+08:00

hello fellow earthlings.

i just came back from work.

and it is indeed tiring.

did shift 1 today (5-12.30) which i havent been doing since forever.

i was supposed to stay at Village but Ekeen put me in Safari since alot of people no-show.

haish...

since i'm a floater who can be put in any shop and still do work.

well today the crowd was unexpected. coz it was raining-off and on.

still the tour groups were rushing in.

but it was like a waste of time lah, all you can do there was take the tram.

all the tumbuakar shows and animal shows were canceled.

the trail is the last to go to coz it is raining heavily and slippery though.

so i guess the guests didn't really enjoy much lah.

fyi, Safari is forever restricted.

so yeah.

as of today we got our own individual lockers for each group.

and as for me, luckily i have Amira, Kusum, NadiahL in the same locker as me.

like what we planned, to put pictures of us on the door. hehe.

cheeky us...

so yeah. luckily now have that system lah.

now i can leave my uniform (when i have school) in the locker safely.

at least i won't have a heavy bag to bring here and there.

exactly 29 days from today, school is gonna start.

wooo scary...

year 2 lah sey! HAHA.

i hate to countdown when its all about school.

but what i like and am excited about is.... 4th april 2009.

my johor trip... to SHOP till i drop.

k NOT!

at least get some school items there lah.

and to eat dominos. (damn, i miss it so much)

and eat dunkin donuts. (my totally number 1 favourite donut shop)

and find some korean stuff there (kalau ade lah)

i hearts this picture!! minho and jonghyun. woo... total jealousy.

2009-03-19T22:13:00.002+08:00

i was supposed to go to RP today...
but i guess i got punked.
no replies. no nothing.
so i guess it was a no.
tkpe dah biase.

wanted to go with ibu, but i was to freaking sleepy. so i told her i'll go next monday.
maybe alone.
woke up at 11am, but went back to sleep again until 2pm, thats when i thought to myself no need to go lah. since it's already late and i do have to rush to work.
BUT!
I GOT A CALL FROM SERENE, SHE TOLD ME THAT TODAY MY SHIFT WAS CANCELLED.
MOTHER beeppppppp!!!
she sounded so lalalala.
and me... i was swearing. like damn it.
dah semangat nak keje, abe ni happen.
lebih bagus aku pergi RP kan tadi. TSK!

so basically i rotted at home. watching tv. switching channels.
starhub cable is killing me. they always repeat each shows every 3-4hrs.
for eg, i watched CSI miami at 2, the very same episode repeated at 7pm.
haishh... i just got bored.

and when i get bored... i stuff myself with sandwiches. alot of them.
haha.
and i felt guilty so i had to go out for a jog. ran around my block for 30mins.
and i was KO-ed.

my life is totally _____.
being rich is hard.
being poor is harder.

PS/my supersweet 16 show on mtv, is such an eyesore. total madness!

2009-03-19T22:06:00.003+08:00

ancik is mad at me for feeling so negative about myself...
but what can i do... it already happened...
"what's the point of talking to you when you always make yourself feel that way?"

so anyway, went to work yesterday. and gosh! i feel so noob.
coz i haven't been to work since... errr...
but luckily serene let me keep my closing, instead of chasing me home.
it will not be shocking if i find out that on 5th april 09, the amount of money is not convincing.
what the hell. haishh...

well there was a new interns. so in total there's like 8 new staff... totally bangsa dorg.
the population of malays and indians is going down down down.
slowly but surely.

ah this is going nowhere...

2009-03-18T02:15:00.005+08:00

just so you know...
i think by now everyone knows this song....

craig david's insomnia...

here's the korean version...

wheesung's insomnia

my point of view on this... get your own creativity...

2009-03-18T00:09:00.004+08:00

ok.

went out with FATS today.

like normal... shid is always late. same old same old reasons.

basically we just roam around.

i went to wisma to retrieve ancik's handphone back.

and yes. that phone is totally useless. it's beyond repair.

ancik is disappointed. what to do...

so we went to grab lunch at LJS. while waiting for shid.

ah... basically all we did was window-shopping.

why?

coz we don't have money..!

we were just going oooohhhh and aaaahhhh...

this that this that.

we're just thinking what we gonna buy when we go to malaysia soon.

counting down... 17 more days...

today... i just got pissed. very pissed.
somehow... some way...

i really felt like going back alone...

i felt like crying...

the sudden feeling...

i hate being fat.

i hate being bullied by others.

i hate being the youngest.

i hate not being able to stand up for myself.

PS/i will remember it. i'm not petty. it's been building up slowly.

2009-03-17T23:54:00.006+08:00

yeah!!!
i got back my laptop yesterday.
hehe. but the thing is that... everything is totally different.
the damn engineer used is fingerprint to lock the laptop.
motherfunction him!
i have never used that function because it's not my personal(like totally personal) laptop...
i do have to share with tmy brother.
and and that MrPan-basket to the max.
and yar... without his fingerprint, i can't really use the adminstrator part.

and HP charge me $101.65 for the recovery crap. haish... there goes my money... nasib baik i didn't spend money on shopping. so ibu's advise do come in handy. glad i listen to her...

and again... i have to wait until i configure the laptop in RP.
to see if anything is wrong with the reformat thingy.
leceh abes sia. so i'm going to RP on thursday with FATS.
they teman me...

anyway went to chongpang with ibu after that.
just so you know... i really have a hard time to get jeans that really fit me nicely.
yes i do know i have a big build.
yes people call me giant for that.
and yes i do care/don't really give a damn.

so we went to the shop that syarfa told me about.
and yes... we found it... like finally...
i bought 3 different colours pair of jeans.
k seriously somehow something wrong with my hip length.
when i wore the jeans sized 36, it's tight.
when i wore the jeans sized 38, it's really loose.
tsk.
and no... there's no pair of jeans sized 37.
DUH!
but i just try my luck and see if the jeans (after wash) have any difference.
who knows, it may shrinks... hahaha.

then we went to get some food home since ibu suddenly wasn't feeling too good.
rushed back home coz i had an appointment with someone.

and that someone is abang...
well... he wanted to give me the new pair of sport shoes that he got for me from work.
he had alot of instructions for me the follow before meeting him.
first to get him all his school certificates.
second to lend him $10.
third to bring the food that ibu bought for him (his share).
tsk...

and yes. i was like a messenger. TSK!
when i reach the MRT station, i just gave whatever he want and took the shoes.
punye lah leceh si die ni.
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as you all know, my first brother sort of no longer lives in the same house as me.
why? i have no idea.
i have no idea where he stays?
i have no idea who he is staying with...? wait. maybe i do...
i have no idea what he's doing right now.
but anyway... he's far away from my life now.

ibu and ayah... haish...
well somehow deep in their hearts, they really want abang to come back home.
its just that, they prefer to keep it quiet.
and let it sore...

ancik and me are always the ones who kena from them.
haish... they keep asking if we're in contact with him.
tell him to not stupid things.
tell him this.
tell him that.
TSK.

new shoes. so i don't have to use abang's one anymore.

2009-03-15T01:45:00.003+08:00

hello.
so right now, i'm updating my blog using syar's laptop.
uwae?
well... my laptop was sent for repair like two days ago and now i'm laptop-less.
and as you know, i can't really do alot of thing without my laptop.
coz it's like a part of me you see.
i can only get back my laptop this coming monday which seems quite long for me!!
tsk! and because of that, i'm like left behind in the kpop world.

so i did send my laptop for some repairs due to damage in the system.
and guess what i have to fork out $$ to pay them for the repairs!!?? haish... everything in this world really uses up money i see...

and how come i can use syar's laptop in the middle of the night, erm...
basically we're having a sleepover.
syar came over my house coz she's scare to stay at home alone since her family left for kampong this afternoon.
err right now, she's asleep and i'm using her laptop in the dark coz i don't really want to disturb her.
well she hasn't slept for the pass 24hours. and now she's sleeping like a baby. hehe.

k back to what i want to blog about...
due to my disappearance of my laptop, i missed superjunior's comeback stage.
i missed BOF episode 18 and 19.
darn it!!
and just now when i watched superjunior's sorry sorry mv, i'm a little bit amazed.
coz some of the dance steps is a little similar to dongbangshinki's.
or am i wrong? i don't know.
but they all look totally HOT.
i remembered how i used to go 'gaga' for them.
all the pictures and videos i had of them.
all the information i looked up everywhere about them.
ok a typical fangirl here. haha.

oh wells... so how's life?
mine has been really boring... work has really been damn boring.
how come it feels like dejavu...?
i remember when i used to work in digiphoto, one by one left the job. and it slowly feels so meaningless to stay as one as them. and new staff joins every single day...
and now, NS retail is beginning to be like that. all the staff that used to make my day is leaving one by one. i'm getting bored with this...
haish...

and due to the interns and the serious matter of cutting down of staff, many people schedule has been drastically disturbed.
a big example is ME!
well, i requested only mondays and tuesdays off..
and guess what i get...?
onyl 12 days of work... dah macam malas sia nak keje gini macam...
and with that, they take away most of our openings and closings.
aku seriously dah macam tkde mood nak keje.
and i lost my title of workacoholic (given by the FATS). haha!
that sucks.
a person like me who used to work 6 days per week, opening/closing, stocktakes-if i can make it... and now no more... i am so bored. i have been staying at home coz i don't want to spend money on unneccesary things. i've been at home, abeskan beras jer.

well yesterday, i temaned Kusum for a job interview at sportslink. it seriously seems like recession is getting on everyone's nerves. a classmate of mine who worked there, was telling me that alot of uncles and aunties came for an interview the day before. so it wasn't the first he saw all this people...
haish... how come even it if recession, the IT-show is doing so well.
does everyone have that kind of money to spend??
seriously??
everyone now is looking for a job to earn money and try their best now to spend them...
only people who are born with a silverspoon do not need to...
god does this for a reason...

PS/not everyone is born happy...

2009-03-12T00:32:00.004+08:00

seriously nothing seems to go my way today.

well it started when i top-up my ezlink using the nets machine, instead of showing the amount left, it showed me,"card concession from 11 february to 10 march". it creeped me out for awhile because that was my first time seeing that. so i just ignored it thinking that maybe haven't update yet. so i just add the value and walk off because i totally don't want to be late for work (cause it's serene incharge today). i rushed to the 171 queue only to see that the 171 bus was just leaving. tsk! timecheck; i was still early so i queued up. i was first in line.

i thought nothing about what happen earlier on, so when the bus came.
i board the bus, and tapped my ezlink.
guess what happened. the loud rejected sound! the one when it says no value or whaever crap.
but mine, it shows card not in use. like what the hell??
malu lah sia!! everyone looked at me!! i tried again, this time in front of the busdriver. still the same result. then he took the card, and tested it and told me," you have to check at the counter there."
cheebs lah!! paiseh sia when i got down the bus, everyone from the other bus queues were looking at me.

i quickly rush to the counter, turning around to see that 171 bus left without me!
motherfunction big time! and at that time i was totally late. when i asked the receptionist to check my card, she said nothing wrong with it. another sakit hati sia!
this time i really didn't want to queue there sia. everyone will be staring at me big time.

when i was waiting for the next bus, a chinese auntie came to me and ask me something in chinese+hokkien. erm do i look like i freaking understand you maam?!!!
i took off my earpiece, told her i'm not chinese. she quickly spoke to me in hokkien+malay.
and i was like huh? and she walk away. cheebai lah she!! padahal sebelah aku ade orang cinacina sia. banyak-banyak orang kau pegi tanye aku!!!

so i took a long way to the 138 bus. since i'm late, might as well make it later. i just don't want to waste money on taxi. haish...
just when i thought everything was going fine, in the bus, i dropped my ezlink card in front of everyone. haish... then... there's this uncle who kept turning around to look at me as if there's something on my face.

*sigh loudly*
at work, the queue to iron uniform was freaking long.
and the one and only iron that is working doesn't iron well, our uniform were still crumpled sia.
management ask how come our uniform like that.
when we told them get another iron, they complain say retailers haven't been buying anything-everything they do. NAIK ANGIN SIA RETAILERS...!

and we found out there's japanese student crowd. about 6-8 buses of them.
the good thing is that sales will be awesome!
the bad thing is the place will be a terrible mess.
broken mug.
plush toy all over the place.
the shelf were totally empty. (because the students practically buy everything)
whatever it is, we hit the target and got our icecream treat. HAHA!
that's the only thing is working for me.

ben&jerrys have a new staff.
hehe. kinda cute.
he got the korean look.
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PS/when i think about it, it makes me tired. it is draining me.

2009-03-11T03:10:00.007+08:00

man! am i lazy to blog about alot of things.
yar... i'm tired and uninspired.

so i got my pay... and i haven't been spending on things yet.
hmm... uwae? coz i don't know what i want to spend it on, i don't know if i should spend the cash that i earned, i just don't know what to do.
basically the $$$ is to be saved. in case of rainy days. alah... you know what i mean right?
ibu keeps reminding me to save the $$$, coz you never know what's going to happen the next moment in your life right...
ayah tells me to get something gold. cause in the future, gold chains (for example) really helps alot.
but me... i think i should just keep it in the bank.
i must have enough to last me till the end of the month...

well right now, i support myself.
ibu doesn't give me $$$ when i go out, or go to work or anywhere for the matter.
instead i have to give my parents $$$.
you know the things when you start working, it is only nice/right if you give your parents your hard-earned $$$ to them-something like to repay them for those past years.
i think most children do that... i think...

BUT i still want to go shopping. HAHAH! i want to get a bag. can i?
i know ibu will make noise, but still a bag... not only ibu makes noise. FATS ALSO...
i asked them just now, if i should get a new bag for the new school semester, and they were like...

NO! how many bags do you have? don't waste $$$, get something that i don't have...

that is why, when i see those rich kids out there.
younger than me especially. some older... spending their $$$ on things that i don't think people at their age should even have, i'll be looking at them curiously/jealously/angrily.
where the hell they get that kind of $$$ from?
why don't they even have to work for it?
why do they have that, and i don't?
life is totally unfair...

this topic ain't going anywhere.
anyway, our dear friend finally got herself a laptop. JEYD!
and now she have a blog.
so people, go link her up @ http://www.shoe-gazer.blogspot.com/
babat the 2nd... hahaha.
credits to babat the 3rd for helping her all the way.

so today we went for our baddy session. but this time no ama. she got something on last minute.
like normal, we reach the stadium at 6.40pm, and this time i get to see the korean soccer players train. WAH! they look so serious when training.
so anyway, we did our normal routine, brisk-walk/run/sprint and baddy!
peach milk tea is the best treat after you do your exercise. HAHA!
awesome-ness chewy pearls...
had our normal discussion. about the 4th. which i am totally excited about, but i don't know about the rest lah. jyeahhh!

and OH! i totally forget to say that, my laptop needs to be reformat. which is making me totally nuts!!! i mean everything, everything will be gone!! tsk!! and and and my FO videos... ahhhh...
%^%$^&#$^&
bloody system...!
motherfungsi!

last but not least, i need a new hobby. real quick.

PS/i hope it isn't just a dream...
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2009-03-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

6th march 2009...

happy 52th birthday to ayah!!

omg, tua nye. k NOT!

semoga panjang umur and all the best.

and i promise to be the good daughter.

don't worry about me, worry about your health.

saya sayang ayah saya.

well... what a bloody long day. ibu had to go babysit, so me and ancik had to deal things ourselves. we went to orchard (to settle ancik's phone problem) to also find something suitable for ayah. we went searching high and low for something. and we came across this harley davidson shop at takashimaya. well... from what i remember, ayah do love bikes. so we went in the shop thinking that nothing is impressive enough for ayah, until we saw this shirt. just nice! totally ayah's style. we bought two shirts and a hat pin which became totally over my budget. but whatever. birthdays don't happen everyday right?

and since it's my payday, so why not?

gave the money and out we went, i was trying not to think too much about how much i just spend yo! i wanted to get alot of things but somehow there was something inside of me, telling me not to spend the money. since i already have them, why buy again? tsk. went home with a birthday cake for ayah. chocolate truffle. muahahaha. enak sekali!!

overall i think ayah had a wonderful birthday.... we surprised him when he just reached home from work, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! hehehehehe. the look on his face, he was happy that we did that for him. hope you enjoy your birthday.

just that abang wasn't there when all this happens...

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as for abang (who didn't make it for the celebration), who gives a damn about you.

screw you! don't ever think of coming back. seriously!!

have you ever thought about ayah and ibu's feelings?

just now, ayah came back and ask, "abang ade balik?"

do you know what that means? it means he really wants you to come back home and celebrate his birthday together as a family.

ergh!!!!

and ibu... she buys nasi sambal goreng on certain mornings, thinking (on her wishful part) that

you will come home and enjoy the food. but you didn't.

come on lah! you are their eldest child.

what are you trying to do with them?

why are you even thinking about that person.

you are so wrong to think that ibu and ayah don't love you anymore.

why don't you just come back home tomorrow and wish ayah happy birthday face to face.

i think that is the only wish that ayah wished for when he blew the candles just now...

2009-03-05T23:49:00.007+08:00

thats me and yvonne.

the bbq day was splendid. the only thing was the 'fake' rain that played with our feelings the whole time we were there. k from what i can see, everyone was very excited. 28th february, my very first bbq with NS retailers. a whole new experience. anyway, after work, we all rushed. like seriously rushed. changed everything. me and amira tumpang kusum's car all the way to east coast park where we practically got lost. from one carpark to the other carpark.

we managed to reach there in time, started the fire. thanks to lizzie and boyfriend, the fire started faster than we expected. from the picture below, you can see everyone is serious at work. well, semua bedek jer. action only.

while others were busy with the charcoal, we managed to set up the other things. kk i'll just let the pictures do the talking first.

well the food was great, i was addicted to the marshmellow like mad!! hahaa. i did manage to eat alot when noone was looking. the best time was when, kusum and mag decided to paly taboo. all the words were self-made.

we did manage to get a group picture!! before we went our separate ways. timecheck 5am. everyone went back by then. leaving me amira and kusum only. actually the plan was to stay behind to watch the sunrise. but we got bored, and went home. we walked like forever lah, just to reach a damn bustop. tsk.

and me, since i leave in yishun. i had to take 853 alone... all by myself. well with mp3 full blast, i had quite a nice sleep on that bus throughout the 1hour long bus ride. FREAKING LONG LAH!

i had fun that day...

2009-02-26T02:23:00.004+08:00

aitos cheetos!!

seriously... i've been craving it since forever.

it seems that i can never find it anywhere. tsk!

alright everyone, together with me... take a deep look at it. stare at it! remember it!

that is the one i want!! not doritos, not corntos. but CHEETOS! ergh! i wonder why nobody really knows what cheetos looks like in the first place. the one and only strong cheesy taste once you put it in your mouth. the one that i describe to ancik ,"the tiger wearing sunglasses". the one and only snack that i REAlly really really want to eat...!

i can't believe that i'm actually blogging about this. hahaha! well right now, i am hungry. but what to do. it's too late to eat now.

i'm jus bored. today i was supposed to temankan ancik for his medical checkup but guess what (like normal), he always wakes up late. so he changed to tomorrow(which is today) and still i have to teman him. ergh! have to wake up at 8, and what am i still doing right now? not yet sleepy lah. msn died on me. i just can't open the damn thing! @$#@%%@!@

me and ibu went to the cpf board today coz she was worried about my cpf letter that was supposed to get a month ago, but i didn't. she was like,"digiphoto ade ketepikan cpf leha tak? or dorang kebas?"... i mean digi ain't that bad sampai nak kebas duit aku kan? speaking about digi... i still miss them, and will always do... the first job that will always be remembered...

i have alot of things to talk about. but i'm just plain lazy to type. so let the pictures tell you what i'm feeling right now...

and i miss my BIGBANG boys. what happen to them? haish... news are down. any new ones? i'm still waiting. SARANGHEYO!!

my current dreamguy. haha! i know right now, he is everyone's dreamguy. lee minho. kiopta!

PS/ journey to the west.

2009-02-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

k kpop time.
tohoshinki's survivor mv is OUT!
and and and JAEJOONG really catches my eyes.

watch it!! TOTAL HOTNESS.

well recently i noticed that changmin's ear piercing is the most decent one. i mean his is normal.
k from my point of view, yunho's ear piercing is scary. like his is dropping. so weird and funny lah. and this is what i think lah, i don't know what you all think. so yeah.

just a piece of something that i really want to get it out of my chest.
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AND! NOW I HAVE MY VERY OWN BIG YUNHO'S NAMETAGGIE.
shid got it for me. THANKYOU! LOVE YOU!
and i have my GD keychain with me 24/7. THANKS TO FATS. HUGS TO BOTH OF YOU!

2009-02-24T23:15:00.002+08:00

plan for the day is to celebrate Ama's advance birthday since we all can't make it on the 26th feb. yah, 26th feb is her 19th birthday. shish! TUA SIA AMA!! hahahaha.

so me and shid discuss this on9, we planned to bake her something since we all don't really have much cash with us. so FATS decided to bake her cookie bars sponsored by Betty Crockers.
around 1730, they reached my house and we started mixing the batter and everything. well the whole process wasn't that hard. SO EASY!! by 1815, everything was done and we rushed to meet Ama. well we've been lying to her all this time in order to plan something like this.

once we were at the stadium, we all waited for the right moment to take out the cookie bars from my bag.

10
9
8
7
6
5... took out the boxes.
4
3
2
1
SENG IL CUKA HAMIDA...
continue it yourself lah eh. lazy to type long long.
and of course! Ama was shocked/touched/happy.

full of smiles.

after that we had our normal baddy. ran around the stadium first. well today was mainly about backstreet boys, westlife and nsync-our theme song for the day. sing-along session.

then we sat at the normal stairs area with lots of bread coz i was so hungry. well this is me... i get hungry usually after my exercise. haha. like no point of jogging right? that's what my brother always say.

as usual, FATS always have plans that we are SO gonna acheive. hehe. wanna know? ANDUEH. only i know.

wrong way

2009-02-23T21:10:00.003+08:00

so what did i do before?

i remember that one time jeyd told me that she walked all the way from the zoo to the 171 bustop alone after work.

well i tried to do that yesterday. first time and maybe the last time.

it was cooling and very tranquil at first. with my mp3-volume switched to the loudest, folded the sleeves of my hoodies, i start my journey. at first i thought it was quite a managable distance, but i was wrong.

WRONG! the more i thought that i was gonna reach NS, the longer the way was. half way through the journey, i was regretting badly. "why didn't i just waited for the bus?! damn!"

and when i reached NS, i was perspiring badly.

to make it worse, people (fellow colleagues) saw me walking and they asked me what i was trying to do. tsk!

hahaha, k i will never do it again... unless i'm with a group of friends who have nothing to do.

peace.

2009-02-22T14:24:00.004+08:00

the heat in singapore is seriously draining my energy. tired is what i always feel. haish...

so anyway this week, i worked only 3 days. why? because... they are cutting cost due to the bad sales. but there's one freaking question on my mind... why cut cost when you are always hiring new staffs? uwae?? tsk. your actions are making the old staffs lose out. just because of them, the days that we are supposed to work, you cut them. tsk!

there's this trend going on in NS, racism. uwae? igeboya? well... they are hiring chinese staff...

how do i know?

case study #01, Ancik went back to the office to ask if he's able to work again since his attachment is all done and he have nothing to do. well guess what they said to him...

NS management: We don't hire malay staff anymore.

Ancik: Why?

NS management: Well because of hari raya, later all malay staff cannot work on that day.

err, what the effing hell. what kind of lame reason are you giving. hari raya is like 8 months form now. and you are worrying about this now. whatever lah.

case study #02, i asked my supervisor if they are hiring. answer:yes, but they try not to hire anymore malay staffs. and she claims that this what the NS management and the head people or whoever tells them.

can i say stupid out loud? STUPID! PABOYA!

from my point of view, all the people that are hired which are sepets never lasts in the job for more than 2 weeks. they caused alot of trouble. trust me, i experienced alot. but bangsa lain, they worked hard. entahlah. discriminating. haish...

i've said my part... but i can't do anything...

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anyway back to my world of kpop/jpop.

i seriously want to watch that movie. bolero as the ost.

full of dancing. ballet, underground dancing.

AND I WANT TO GET THAT PAIR OF SHOES!!

shid & syar! cepat lah dapat gaji. padahl aku sendiri pon blum dpt gaji. HAHA!

kasuuuuutttt ala ala korea.

at least boleh feeling feeling biler skola dah bukak.

hehe!

PS/syar, kamsahamida for the help. haha. shid! new skin!! finally kan!?

i love this guy. do you?

2009-02-18T21:32:00.004+08:00

this was days ago. FATS went to holland village to get some stuff for school. it was pretty much a day for us to tour around the angmoh's area.
oh yar, just for shid, we had to meet up at 12++, which means i woke up at 11. tsk!
we took the train to jurongeast, met suhaili in the train (he's going to school-it's weird to see him again after all the talkings about what happened so far)...

we reached our destination, like finally. BUT THE HEAT WAS UNBEARABLE. it was bloody sunny. its like shinning directly onto all the human beings.

mi wanton! well FAT girls still have to eat right?

so yeah, that's my 450D canon. hehe!

well, i guess everyone is happy with what they bought at SongSong. a place for people like you and me. haha!

seriously i hate to type alot of words... basically we went to SSC after that. and i got my YUNHO'S NAMETAG at CC!! so mine! shopped at challenger for awhile, i have no choice but to get the table fan for my laptop-too hot. there goes my cash. KACHING!

it's either a destroy laptop or a new table fan.

to fadzly (fazzy wazzy),

woit!! aku KHABAR BAIK. hahaha! amcm canada? ouh. a jiemin's chalet. k cool. pape kau beep jer aku. and as for the Sharwarma, cool keper. mane kau dapat? kat canada? tapau uh.

:D :D take care kk.

2009-02-17T23:49:00.004+08:00

i'm back. nothing much to do and this blog seriously need some changes.
so i'm thinking of changing the whole concept. so just wait and see lah.

my lovely brother was feeling generous today. which only happens only when he gets his pay. so i woke up like 12pm, because the plan was to bring ibu to hi-tea at the royalscottsplazahotel. but i was thinking to myslef why not go there when its ayah's bdae which in a month's time. so i came up with reasons like go sakura instead. but when ancik checked for more info at the sakura's website, it says the buffet is only for lunch and dinner-timing 12 to 2.30pm and 6 to 9pm. its like wasted uh. biler ancik nak blanje, byk lah bende yg tak kene.

but anyways we still went out, coz ancik mati2 nk blaje kite sume. so me, ibu and ancik went to northpoint walk2, ate at the foodcourt (last resort). then i suggested to go swensens for dessert. HAHA. i like!

but before that we went to popular to get some items there. well actually, ancik wanted to get some bdae presents for his friends. and mcm biase... i will ask for something jokingly. and he takes it seriously... haha. right now i have this adorable CAREBEAR 12inch. PURPLE HARMONY BEAR. so we headed to swensens. ancik was sort of pissed with the service coz we were standing at the entrance (waiting to be seated) but noone came to us. well it happens.
DESSERT WAS GREAT-EARTHQUAKE.
8 different flavours... banana split, chocolate frosted malt, sticky chewy chocolate, chocolate peanut butter, cookies n cream, macadamia nut (i forgot 2 more).
seriously i feel fat. but it is so heavenly that i felt like vomitting after eating everything.

went back home and rush to change. coz FATS EXERCISE DAY OUT. baddy was waiting for me. its been awhile since i joined them to play. (well i've been busy) so we went to yishun stadium.
and now i know what they have been talking about all this while... korean soccer players there. HAHAHA. kelakar per sia. we got to our normal place and took our time with warm-ups.
with music, laughters, it made my week.
FATS, tuesdays will be given to baddy forever aites..?
no work, no outings, no nothing, just that.

note to self... currently watching gossipgirls season 2 episode 4.
i havent been watching tv for a very long time! and yesterday when i watched desperate housewives, i realised that i missed ALOT of episodes lah sey!

2009-02-05T02:06:00.006+08:00

to start everything, we spread the FATS love...

2009-02-05T01:44:00.003+08:00

wooots~
i've been gone for quite some time yar... i just don't feel like updating.
well alot of thing have been going on lately.

-i finally got a dslr camera!! hehe! CANON 450D. all the months i worked in NS finally paid off.

-FATs got into RP!! hahaha. as of april09, kita sama skola!! yeah! alhamdulillah.

-kinda feel trap at work... there's ccctv everywhere, and constant reminder that people are watching you from idk where.

-finally treat family to lunch at seoulgarden. kinda feel proud of it coz it's my hard-earned money.

-OUH! and right now i have wireless in my own house. so wonder how i use internet when i don't have broadband at all. heh...

so right now, i'm kinda having loads of fun with my camera. hehe. i can go shooting already with anyone, i'm still an amateur kk. teach me while you can and be patient!

well yesterday went to NS on my offday to hang out with FATs and ama. seriously everything was funny, from the part where ama thot we had to walk all the way from the 171bustop to NS when we can actually wait for the 138bus. HAHA! and the part where i enjoyed most when we start taking jumpshots and could never stop.

kk i'll stop talking here coz my head has went blank for a moment.
i'll just post pictures aitessss...

2009-01-18T01:13:00.002+08:00

NICE RIGHT?

haha. i woke up early just because i promised ibu to teman her to do some grocery shopping. terpakse bangun siang sia. went to northpoint... had bfast at foodcourt. AND I ATE THAT^! BATHURA! AWESOMENESS. its been a long time since i eat that. ibu ate poori, something like chappateh. ooh... KOMALAS is ust prefect for me. hahhhhh.
i can eat that everyday and won't get tired of it... hehe.
GEMOK SIA PERANGAI.

anyway we went to NTUC. usually when we go there, is always the time when ibu got alot of vouchers form ayah. haha. as for me... take a lil advantage... chocolate sume aku kebas masuk bakul. then ibu will be like, amek lah amek lah, asalkan tak over budget. coolios.
ibu was busy finding chicken. kecoh sia.

ah... today was kusum's open house (my fellow worker in ns), meet up with weekiat at bukitgombak and walked to her house. and guess what? WE GOT LOST! in the hot sun. tsk!
once we reached her place, we were perspiring sia. and and and i really like kusum's house. so cosy.
the food is so nice... ahhhh. when it comes to food, zulaiha never say no. hahahaha.
true enough.

after that went to work. again...

k im done.
i got things to prepare for the upcoming GDO.
tata.

2009-01-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

wah. the 200th post already...
so fast, wonder what i've been posting all this while...

so anyway, i'm mixing korean letters with chinese characters. gosh!
its getting harder than ever. luckily malay is alphabets. or else...
punye lah susah. it's like you have to remember all the characters, if you miss one freaking stroke, the wholething will mean something totally different. its difficult.

my chinese just ended, so far i've finished 3 books of a foreign language to me. 3 sia!!
see how long i struggle to finish them. i want to stop for now, but dah mcm sayang...
i spent months on this language, abe nak berhenti... tkpayah lah.
continue jelah... i still have a very long way to go. period.

want to know the shocking part for this whole week??
AKU TAK CABUT SKOLA LANGSUNG FOR THIS WEEK!!
haha. k everyone knows what i'm good at doing. so yeah.
its amazing if you see me staying through the whole lesson.
anyway, i just want to make the most of it for this last weeks.
as in the grade lah.

haish... i have this weird feeling about year 2. alot is gonna change.
facilitators have told us the changes... and we're the first batch to sort of start this.
want me to put it in bullet points?

This is due to the change of principal.
·Timing had change
o Year 1 > 8.30am to 4pm
o Year 2 > 9.15am to 4.45pm
o Year 3 > 9.30am to 5pm
-to be confirmed, coz they are cutting the break time shorter.
·The UTs… now there’s no such thing as the best 3 out 4 UTs, all are important. UT3 determines everything.
·Cannot cabut already. Coz the attendance system will be different. Stricter.
·There will be attachments. (finally a good thing)
that is what i know.

i mean the timing is ridiculous... dah tkpayah keje malam sia. as in abes kol 4.45pm, tk sempat nk rush for opening at all. abe kalau ade UT which is for year 2 is after class, abes kol5++...
haiyoh....

ah papelah.

as for the science faci that i had for these semester 2, 16 weeks...
i never like you at all. you're ridiculous!
good luck for those classes that's gonna get her as a faci.
:D

PS/i hate rich people.

2009-01-16T08:46:00.003+08:00

ok seriously... i love FAMILY OUTING!

i mean even though they are really a big-related-to-each-other-family-members, they really treat each other as if they are blood-related.

its amazing how they all can bond with each other no matter what happens.

all the games they play, all the time they cook dinner together, all the time they set off to finish up the list of things to do, the time they sleep in the living room together.

it is so FUNNY!

right now, i find hyori kinda cool, daesung kinda cute, jongkook kinda fierce.

go watch it, i cant stop myself from watching that show, so addictive.

if only all the episcodes are subbed.

k so lately i've been watching that show, laughing to myself.

i don't know what to do already. i mean most of the dramas, i watch them already.

WGM-waiting for more episodes to air.

Family Outing-waiting for more episodes to be subbed.

other than that there's nothing much.

and and and i'm bored! to the max.

so boring...

taken from soompi.com(bigbang forum) ^__^

i need to do something quick! as in i'm so bored, so sleepy, so everything! need to get a day job. but how?? haish... school... one more week, and i'm officially done with year 1 people!!!! kk, will update more, my science facilitator is getting on my nerves! so zzzzzzz, like wth lah she... follow by the book too much yo!

2009-01-13T10:56:00.008+08:00

spreading the koreannn loveee... ... ...

boys in unform... meltsss...

"i'm all grown up now, not young."

so i guess tukutz is the only one that can handle kids?? poor tablo...

SARANGHEYO!!

they really know how to have fun. HAHA!

can i tuck leader in? sleep tight...

"Introducing 2pm, that girl... blah blah blah"

the hot acrobatic boys that never fail to impress me with their moves.

appleS of my eye. saranghamida. :D

2009-01-13T09:58:00.003+08:00

the GreeN WHIte Red Day 22nd december 08... NIght safaRI retailERsss

2009-01-11T01:01:00.003+08:00

all of a sudden i felt like blogging. and update everything that happened in my life.
k so school has reopen-three weeks of holiday have officially ended. so zzzz.
even though i dread waking up early, i had to force myself sia.

k biarlah rahsia.
right now im still recovering from the fever i kena on tuesday. my throat seriously still soar. no matter what lozenges i eat, it doesn't work. have to bare with it jelah.

lately the only thing i know i'm keeping up to date is korean stuff. haha.
like bigbang is no longer performing or promoting anything in korean, only baby is doing his strong baby. they are preapring to go to US.
like dbsk is in japan promoting their japanese album, i think.
like SNSD's comeback song, Gee is nice. (can't believe i'm saying that)
like i'm hooked on Family Outing.
like i think hyori is cool. because she's old but still happy-go-lucky type.
like i think i like ft island.
like i'm dreaming of ____ al the time. HAHAHA.

k i'm sounding like a crazykoreanfreak right...? whatever lah eh. asalkan aku bahagia lah.

so i got ibu to like wondergirls already, she's like,"lucu lah dorg, mcm classic gitu."
then ancik was like," laiha, nanti kalau bigbang nye haruharu ade english vers bilang ancik tau, lagu die sedap uh, cume bahase jer tak paham."
HAHA. ancik, the guys who hates korean stuff. now......
people change.

well, as for me... i'm happy that the daily dose of korean is still keeping me going on till now.

and i miss my korean buddy in class... haish...
nothing to share with her anymore.
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k so, i really have to say this... year 1 is really ending soon. VERY SOON!
in a blink of an eye (one week more), i'm totally done...
and... three months long holiday... guess what i'm gonna do...
WORK. duh!
thinking of working in the airport... thinking only...

so school have been quite okok lah. the problems are getting easier and slackier.
nak dekat abes skola mah, thats why faci sume kasik chance. haha.
except for science module. ergh! i think i have to retake that damn module.
i have this weird feeling about this. didnt attend school on friday cos i woke very very late.
ahh, all i have to do is meet the predicted grade! damn!
whatever lah~
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yesterday was the olevel results.
i was feeling nervous eventhough it wasnt me who sat for the exam.

some did well, but some didnt.
others improve for the second try. hmmm...
for those who didnt do quite well, dont worry... there's always something for everything.
have faith. :D keep the hopes up aites!!
hwaiting!!

met up with FATs after school, they got the points to go to poly.
so i'm wondering where they want to go. RP? TP? SP? NP? NYP? hmmm...
they were talking about all the courses and stuff. they are going to be in a school. like finally. haha. joking.
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i'm bored. i have nothing much to say in my blog. so erm... boring...
kk, i'll keep updating pictures kkkk... :D

2008-12-31T00:29:00.003+08:00

so i get to watch that SBS Gayo Daeju 2008... with the help of Shiddough.
just imagine me so excited already, rushed to SYARPA's house to set up everything.
from the website, to the loading everything lah.
BUT... nothing was going right... i was kinda crushed coz i didnt really get to see BBSK.
then shid came to the rescue with her webcam, so we watch the whole show from the webcam.
haha! bersyukurlah. at least dpt tngk sia! and yes...

Baby's strong baby debut stage. like whoa! didn't know baby grow up so fast.
Taeyang's don't wanna try (piano version), it was better than the previous one that he performed long time ago.
Wonderboys' peformance was adorable! sungmin is getting cuter...
SuperJuniorHappy's Pajama Party is still alive.
and DBSK's ending... i know it makes girls drool right? haha. but its too little!! why at the end? that's like the only time when all 5 of you stripped to show the backs. wahhh!!

so it was fun, eventhough we watch it through a freaking webcam! so small lah.
but THANKS SHID!
when that show ends, timecheck-it was already 12.30am... at syarpa house...
alah nothing lah. like normal... i thought of sleeping over sia. macam malas nak balik.
only ibu lah...
she was like,"kan rumah orang, tkmo kacau dorg, BALIK!"

LOL. well i took my time... called her saying will be back a little late.so me syarpa n shid, webcam like mad people.we had fun. kate perempuan mah... HAHA.

2008-12-28T01:16:00.002+08:00

Girls just wanna have their share of fun.

These are some of the pictures from the lovely GDO at botanic garden.

seriously i love this picture! it is so....

the time where food is stuffed into our hungry stomachs!!

more to come!!

2008-12-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

Christmas is 7 days… but my day is only for a day…

Why do I feel like crap on my birthday? Not because I’m growing a year older. It’s a different feeling. The feeling when all you want is everything to go well but nothing seems right. Why the hell are tears coming out of my eyes on this freaking day??

The whole point is my birthday is like………..

Thank you NS Retailers, the surprise you guys gave me was unexpected. All I thought was you guys treating me to my choice of ice-cream at B&J. but you all gave me a cake. It has been 6 months since I’ve known you all. May the friendship last…

That was my birthday. Hope all those people who are born on the same day as me have a better birthday.

PS/thank you everyone for the wishes. Love you guys.

2008-12-23T01:36:00.002+08:00

my schedule till january... so pack...

23 dec = work

24 dec = work

25 dec = work

26 dec = off

27 dec = work

28 dec = off

29 dec = off

30 dec = tuition

31 dec = work, but rushing off for countdown with girlfriends.

OMG, i'm celebrating xmas/eve in NS. haha. pathetic.

can i no show tomorrow? i'm tired...

2008-12-23T00:49:00.004+08:00

hello fellow earthlings.
k i've decided to update.
too boring lah. i seriously got nothing to do... so yeah.
k december is a month with alot of birthdays... of my friends & korean artists...
hahah. december is also the time when you start to realise new things.

15-16th decemeber 2008
still not working... i feel like something is missing when i'm not working. maybe i'm just used to working like 6days per week. then all of sudden, they give me off for 5-6 days straight. so weird lah. need to find people to replace soon!!

18th december 2008
no idea why i didnt work. noone need replacement mah. so rest... actually to prepare the things for the whole GDO thing.

19th december 2008
the time has come. the GDO that we've been planning since like forever. k not.
since the mid of bulan puase. LAME KAN? tell me bout it. wawawa.
the whole organise by ME. shish.
risau sia aku. i was scare that the thing is not go on as planned.
and i know everyone was waiting for it for quite a long time.
and i know everyone is risau bout the whole dresscode, food, etc.
i know how you feel people. AND GUESS WHAT?

everyone followed my letter. hehe. for the very first time khatib people were early. i was there and i witness how shid (of all people) was sitting there waiting for izyan and me. haha.
i was so happy that everyone followed the time... well i guess they really take my letter seriously.

EVERYTHING WENT VERY WELL.
except that it rained exactly when we found the right place to set the mat. tsk!
but it didnt spoil any mood, we found a nice shelter where everything started.
eat eat and eat. there was quite alot of food. all were nice. and filling to the max.
after that we went 'photoshooting'.

had to rush coz shid had to go to KL... then tyrah joined us.
so like normal, when girls meet, what do we do?
we talk lah! what else right?...
we went to the normal place, the staircase by marinasquare.
story here and there. it feels like we all havent been going out much lately.
we catch up with everything, talk about the latest news, gossips.
alot lah. like when it was time to go home, kinda hard to separate.
from 9 (the time planned to leave that place) to 9.30 then 10plus.
ahahahaha. well we really had alot to talk about mah.
so much things, so little time.

so overall i was pretty glad that everything went well.
for those who came down for the little picnis we had, and the after-plan, thankyou.
my hardwork... hahah.
for those who didnt, maybe next time aites.
i will try to plan something again. a time when EVERYONE can really make it.
:D
love you ladies alot.

20th december 2008
came down to work like normal. this time start at 1pm to do stock-taking.
work for freaking 12 hours sia. haha. nevermind lah, extra pay sia...
that is why people call me workacoholic.

the sitution has tone down alot. eventhough alot of people mcm KPO, nak tau semua.
just like jesse mccartney says, "baby it's over."
hahaha.

21st december 2008
work again.
that's my life people. so dont keep asking why i always work only.

22nd december 2008
another outing. actually i just came back from it.
and i am so tired but i cant sleep so....
outing with NS GIRLS only. let the guys work now. time for the ladies to have thier share of fun.
most of the girls came down. a total of 13 people. hmm. i think so uh.
SENTOSA come picnic too.

as soon as we reach, we lay out the mats. and eat. i havent had any food in my stomach this morning. so it was brunch for me. the spread was alot sia. everyone brought something. hahhh. i feel fat all the time. i enjoy feeding myself. hahahahaha.

k when you hear sentosa, the sound of the waves and sea, it makes you wanna come into the water right??
well i was freaking eager to go in. but the rest were so reluctant. damn!
so me and amira (ONLY) went to dip our legs inside.
AND stupid of me to wear a white pants.
white pants + water = transparent!!! (well that was the dresscode for the day mah-tsk!)
paiseh sia. can see my tighs... fat ones.

k anyway, we had to exchange presents. christmas day mah.
i bought this carebear-4leavesclover-luck-green...
i dont know for who, it's like we pick a name from the lucky dip and give our gift to that person.
i got one from nina - a water tumble. kinda of an artistic one. haha. k like it lah.
i was nervous to whom my gift will be for. well clarice got it!
i was scare if she won't it. then she shriek out!
"thats my favourite color, ah so cute!"
fuhhh luckily sia.
k its over.

then we went into the water again. but this time with.... nina and jasmine. haha.
i manage to pscycho more people to get wet. i have no idea why people go to sentosa and dont swim. well DPDP lah. so whatever.
deep sia we swim! haha. i sempat cuci mata as well sia. hehe.
got this cute guy and his friend swam across the sea to our side and hang around our area.
when we taking pictures, they were smiling as well. siow uh? haha.
nasib baik die cute, kalau tk... hahah. you know, i know.

we took the sky-ride and luge. it awesome lah! haha. but not my first time so...
okok lah. and i ate carls and jr for the first time. macam ketinggalan zaman sia.
the place is muai. must go there next time.
everyone tired already. eyes shutting already. luckily lizzie send us home.
from vivo to yishun, and guess how long i was in the car?
2 hours. sesat lah sia.
we couldnt really find the yishun, we went round and round.
but anyway, i reached home safely but late. thanks lizzie.
:D

next outing in february. no idea where.

pictures for both outing will be posted soon.

PS/people say i'm so young. too young already. they are jealous of my age. (a freaking 16). but... i cant wait to be 21. ahaha. k whatever. take care earthlings~

aku asik terbayang-bayang muka kau. aper ni?

i thought i saw you at sentosa today, looking very happy taking the luge, but then it wasn't you... or is it you?

it wasnt clear.

2008-12-16T20:52:00.004+08:00

ok seriously this blog havent been updated for quite some time.
well i've been lazy... freaking lazy...
maybe its due to the WET weather. like everyday raining...
RAINISM. haha. k lame.

so when was the last time i update? erps... 2 weeks ago?
anyway, nothing to be updated lah. just plain boring life i go through everyday...
went to school like normal, went to work like normal.

FINALLY HOLIDAYS!!!
yipppeeeeeeeeee!!!
it started last week lah...
and on saturday, for the first time ever, there was a meeting for retailers.
and it feels so bloody weird.
its different from Digiphoto's meeting where everyone will always laugh and crack stupid jokes-smokes everywhere.
but this one is... quite quiet. everyone will laugh and stop. no jokes. serious.
as for now, i'm officially grouped under VILLAGERs...
sounds so... ... ...

i have no idea what i'm doing this holidays. i've been spending most of the time at home, laying on my bed and spazzing. haish... mcm no life.
this week, only 2 days of work. the other 5 days, OFF. siak uh! boring sia gini.
but lately, i spend most of the time temaning her do groceries shopping. mcm biase, she buy,i kena carry everything.
sunday shiengshong.
monday was suppose to go to mustafacentre but postpone to dont know when...
tuesday chongpang.

went jogging today. yeap. alone. coz monday exercise day was cancelled.
ran alone at pandang fendi... as i ran, i can feel the breeze. it was so refreshing.
then I RAN UP THE STAIRS to my house which on the last floor (10th)...
i felt like vomitting once i reach the top.
did some warmups and K.O by the stairs there. luckily i have my music to keep me going on.

anyway, supposed to have the GDO today, but change it to friday.
and i cant decide what to wear.
its always because of the dresscodes that makes me so _____ about outings.
i hate dressing up.
alright girlfriends, DO CHECK YOUR MAILBOX aites.

next monday also got outing. TO SENTOSA!! haha. green white red.
NS girls outing. yeah.

should i count down?? to my ______ (FILL IN THE BLANK!!)
kalau tk tau jugak, aku tak tau nak kate aper.
hahahaha...!!!
can i do something weird, stupid, crazy on that day...?

free information for everyone!!
-coloniz hoodie
-nike shoes
-a big sling bag
-DSLR CAMERA (confirm dapat nye!!!)
hahahah... maybe just stay healthy will do...
:D

ouh and ayah said,"minggu ni, kau g sign up untuk amek lesen... kereta... NOT MOTOR."
WAH! haha. as in the pdl only... next year will officially start it.
zzzzzzzzzz.

2008-12-09T09:23:00.003+08:00

entries that i owe...

5-6th December 2008, Friday-Saturday (morning)

what did i do?

i had to work.

Supervisor put me incharge of the Village shop. just because mr BIG botak boss (HunLoon) and Linda were walking around to check the shop bla bla bla. i hate it when they do that.

it feels like someone is always watching what you are doing from far.

and when that happens, i can't work sia.

i had to make sure that we always have something to do...

but the new girl keeps coming to the counter to talk to me, and everytime that happen, HunLoon was there. tsk! such wrong timing.

and that night was the BIG SURPRISE for Izyan. but haish... i can't join gfs for the surprise.

i can't punch out at 1030 because i had to do closing.

i heard everything went well. i missed everything damn! everyone was there. they had fun.

and me... i was stuck at work.

how i wish i was there.

anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NUR JUIZYAN!!

17 and still going on...

stay cute, sweet and bubbly aites.

by Zul :D

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6th December 2008, Saturday (afternoon)

had an off-day.

that day, the plan was to watch a dance performance at Square2 with FATS.

but jeyd had something on, so me and shid went on with the plan, together with Aqilah.

once we reached, it just started.

LET'S WELCOME "LAST FOR ONE!!"

and guess what, i forgot to bring my camera!! ergh!!

i could just see the performance but couldn't record anything.

i have to admit, they awesome!!

i think the best dance live performance i've seen so far.

and Popping Q (i think that's his name) was hot. hahaha.

he had a very nice face features.

we went for the 7pm performance also. just because we can't get enough of the boys and we didn't really get a nice view of the whole performance. and still they are AWESOME.

after that we went to meet shid's elder sister, Aisyah, at far east plaza.

i wanted to get a bag that can fit laptop, but... haish. i guess my laptop is too big. hah!

we walked through the lights. and town was crowded. its normal.

its christmas season mah... everyone is doing their shopping... hmmm...

when is it my turn to shop??

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7th December 2008, Sunday

did nothing... except work...

again...

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8th December 2008, Monday

selamat hari raya haji!!

to semua umat islam.

k thats all...

nothing much to be done on this day. just eat eat and eat.

went to Wak Nina's house... normal stuff.

AND i cleared my cupboard!! the one full of clothes. haha.

i was bored, seriously got tired of using the laptop...

so i opened my cupboard and threw everything onto the floor.

before = was a complete mess, if i want to find a shirt, i have to dig very deep. even after folding the clothes, i'll just shove everything inside. and ibu will say,"kau nye almari nak jadi aper ni? rabak nah!"

after = i can breathe in it. ahaha. i can easily find a clothes.

all of them are nicely arranged and folded, hanged accordingly.

i got rid alot of clothes. most of them are clothes that i know i will never wear at all.

AND i just found out i have a lot of hoodies and jackets... zzzzz...

why on earth do i have that when spore is so hot???

k i'm done. this is my boring life.

i have been watching this new variety show... and it's KOREAN.

haha. no matter what, i still need my daily dose on KOREAN!

PS/i'm very sleepy

2008-12-04T20:07:00.004+08:00

NOMADS FOR A DAY...

i wonder if people who saw us will think that we're the type who have no life.

well... let's just say, me and Shid went to the airport to do some observations.

we went there with the purpose of relax and relive our memories that we had during the KPOP fest. haha.

we did a lot of catching up, watch a few videos here and there....

we were finding for a powerplug like mad.

from T1 to T2 to T3...

but finally we sat one corner at terminal 2, i was too tired. AND HUNGRY!!

most of the time we were eating and spazzing! hehe.

(seriously POPEYES is awesome... i can never get sick of that food)

we talked about everything. KPOP-all rounders. this drama, that show, THE GUYS.

haha. well...

time really pass damn fast, so we decided to walk more AND THATS WHEN WE SAW STARBUCKS GIVING AWAY FREE DRINKS. hahaha.

so what do nomads do? we went for it, we acted out a typical scene when we were just passing by and "accidentally" saw the sign. hahaha.

FREE FOR EVERYONE!! due to xmas, they were having this donation thing. salvationarmy.

starbucks made my day. the taste is so..... ahhhhhh...

k seriously, we had alot of fun. observing every single tourists there. dreaming and thinking when is it our turn to get on a plane and fly...

k dream on Zul. i can only wait until i get my masters. damn!

alright so the best part for today is that when i came back home... i saw a package.

and guess what's in it? MY MIROTIC ABLUM VER A...!!

like finally i got it! damn starthots but at the same time thankyou!!

:D now i have DB boys with me... hehehehe. I'M HAPPY!

smile with me people!!

HAPPY~ HAPPY~ HAPPY~ HAPPY~ HAPPY~ HAPPY~HAPPY~HAPPY~HAPPY~HAPPY~

2008-12-01T11:35:00.003+08:00

DECEMBER!!!!!
it's finally here people!
:D
you know, i know...
one more week to holiday. and i seriously do not know what to do during the 3 weeks holidays.
work schedule isn't very hectic, i feel free. in a week at least 3 days of work... zzzzzzz.
i want to work more but then people say 'not fair-overwork'.
k whatever...

anyway. december... where it all began...

9 December, 16 December, 22 December...

26 December 2008!

lame lagi sia.

anyway work have been awfully good! ahah.

and for the first time ever, i touched a freaking photocopy machine!

@$%#$%#$!

as in, i used that machine. and it nearly killed me. it looked like transformers. every part of it can be opened and insert something. i felt like i was doing data filing sia.

Pauline saw me feeling bored, so she ask me to help her photocopy like a pile of papers.

damn! i was left in the freaking creepy alone.

and i need a day job! seriously, i'm like wondering what i'm gonna do during my 3 months holiday in January. maybe work in a factory. hmmm. asalkan dpt gaji sudah kan??...

ANNOUNCEMENT!!

ANYONE WANTS A KITTEN?

NAME : SKA

AGE : 3 WEEKS OLD

GENDER : MALE

SPECIES : I HAVE NO IDEA (BUT IT LOOKS LIKE AN ORDINARY CAT)

COLOUR : BROWN, GREY, A LITTLE BIT OF BLACK

ibu ask to give away. or give to the SPCA (last resort).

i have to many PERSIAN cats already.

ANYONE??? JUST PM ME IMMEDIATELY!!!!

k bye! :D

2008-11-29T01:36:00.003+08:00

can i admit this that for the first time ever, i love today's module.

it just makes me love class.

well at first, i thought lesson is gonna be boring as normal.

but when faci said that today we will be doing something different and not powerpoint slides, i was kinda glad that i came to school. haha.

so today's topic is ???... questions... and more questions.

my team chose the role of tabloid reporters (something i really love to it in the future)...

its my expertise anyway. haha. so i just came up with a random storyline.

and from there, we ask questions to the victims.

it felt so like CSI. seriously... i was so absorbed into the whole of 3rd meeting.

FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME!!!

ok so whatever...

after lesson ends, i had a little of BIGBANG. their new CF!! they are so cute.

especially when Taeyang pulled the snowman and put it on his head.

and Bong, he blew the candle. ahhhhh!

i can go nuts! i was just shrieking in my own seat.

k had to rush to work already coz scare lambat mah.

i already got bad record sia. tsktsktsk.

sampai jer, dah ramai org. haish... luckily Fairuz help me to iron my shirt. hehe.

its called turn by turn. :D

work has been really awesome. i had alot of 'shopping' in the shop. till my place have alot of NS bags. i feel so close to them already.

its the same thing, i'm the youngest there, so i tend to treat them like big sisters who always give me weird advises. and today i was called a baketball player and a wrestling champion.

bagusssss...

haish kinda suck being big sized...

so anyway, Ancik brought back home this very adorable kitten. its a male one.

its the size of my hand. so nakala and adventourous. but then, ibu say 4 persian cats at home is enough. she doesn't want another cat, so Ancik has to do something fast before ibu throw the cat way under the block.

and here i am, asking this loudly...

ANYONE WANTS A MALE KITTEN?? CALL ME QUICK!

WE NEED A NEW ADOPTER FOR SKA.

well ska is the name of that male cat. cute right!?

will post the pictures soon.

2008-11-26T11:07:00.006+08:00

my body is aching sia!

must be because of playing badminton on monday.
pain to the max. i can't really move my right arm.

well FATs went to yishun stadium on monday right after school.

rush to shid's house to crap about korean. more of them.

hey dont blame me for loving them too much.

i just cant get enough of them.

so anyway, after we walked to the stadium from shid's house.

WALK SIA! with my totally heavy bag!

content of bag = LAPTOP/WIRE, clothes. ergh! with shoes.

tsk!!

once we reach, played badminton. then we ran in the stadium. 1 ROUND ONLY.

hahah. at least we ran you see. then we crapped/played more badminton/danced.

we were dancing like nobody business. haha. even those who were running on the tracks were looking at us weirdly. techtonic TT__TT

but we all perspire to the max. its been a long time since we ran.

rested for awhile and talked like old times.

anyway, due to that day, my body have been aching badly.

went back home with MY HEAVY BAG!

from now on, every monday is our DAY... exercise all we want.

had ngaji at night. ergh. so damn tiring. i just KO after that.

anyway yesterday was Kevin from U-Kiss Birthday. seng-el cuka hamida Kevin-sshi.

aren't my boys cute. hahaha. ^^

total coolness.

actually i just noticed this, exactly one month...

26 december.

17th birthday.

ONE MORE MONTH!!! ahahahahahaha.

will GDragon be there to blow the candles with me?

(just like the one above)

i wanna try doing something fun on my birthday!

since i'm not working on that day...

anything... anything... anything...

hahaha.

i wanna try writing letters... to whoever that receive it... haha!

2008-11-24T11:07:00.002+08:00

why do guys look bloody hot dancing in suits?
DBSK' wrong number.
BIGBANG's MKMF performance.
2pm's tango dance with Wondergirls.
ahhhh... i'm melting. hahah.

currently watching to wonderbakery at youtube.
will be back soon.

2008-11-24T08:47:00.003+08:00

definition of FAMILY = father and mother i (the kids) love you.

well thats what everyone says.
just imagine early morning, i just woke up and eating mybreakfast.
abang preparing to go to work already, ayah came up to him and thats where it all started...

ayah : pergi sidai tuala, nanti busuk.
abang : biarlah, tkde pape jadi lah.
ayah : angkat lah! rumah ni tkde hamba.
and blah blah blah blah blah.
all the words that i dont think ayah wants to say just came out.
about leaving the house and taking all the belongings...

haish. the relationship between ayah, ibu and abang is falling apart.
day by day, its just getting worse.
i can't do anything sia.
abang pun satu... psl pompan, sanggup sia buat gini mcm.
abe bbual bukan2 psl ibu&ayah.

as for me and ancik, we cannot do anything but just listen and try our best not to be like abang.
but it is unpredictable.
ayah and ibu is so prepared to let abang go. LET GO OF HIM...
ayah : hilang satu tkpe, ayah ade lagi dua.
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hmm... anyway work has been so slacking. and has been "shopping" lately.
and the three Ediots, were just spending more time talking instead of working. haha.
it was raining so not many guests.
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ok for the previous post, did i hit anyone's nails?
coz if i did, i dun mean it.
i was there, you were there. so you know, i know.
i dun really know what's going on, if i said anything wrong, just feel free to correct me all you want.
oh and one more thing, i'm kinda slow with news of BigBang, so pls update me coz i'm always busy with work. :D
kamsahamida! :D